Thirteen Rabbits

i can't understand
why some christians are so crazy about God.

supposedly someone died 2 millenia ago
he preached about God and then a whole lotta authors started writing this book they call the Bible aka God's Word.

im gonna digress abit here.
Jesus was born of the virgin Mary.
ok. fine. i can handle that.
(IVF ah?)

As a kid i was confused
is Jesus THE MAN or is his father the REAL MAN?
more appropriately, THE GOD.
so jesus and god have this complicated relationship possible only thru cloning.
why?
cuz jesus IS God and yet is still supposed to be his son
get it?
cloning, i tell you.

and why were they so ready to accept what those people wrote as God's word?
no offence, but for all you know they(someone) got piss drunk/consumed some drug/poison and started hullucinating the Angel had come to see them. or were delusional. and why did they take dreams so seriously nia

i still find it difficult to accept how this universe was created.
God said let there be this. and that. and that.
seven days later, alright i think i'll rest today. all done.

so where did God come from huh?

Birth of universe aside, isnt it more believable to think god is just a figment of our imagination. and miracles are simple coincidences and/or freaks of nature?

bleah whatever.
i started on this entry wanting to rant about God's followers. guess i kinda strayed from that.

for the record, im not anti-anything.

i wish i could be a better judge of character.
i wish i could shut out those nasty things they say about people, so i can form my own opinions.

nasty nasty.
maybe i shld just give everyone that 'dazed/ignorant/stoned' attitude, eh, then i can't be wrong.

2 (or 3) posts ago i said i was gonna leave my lab report and start on some 'other crappy homework'. unfortunately i do not take art. so, i didnt manage to get any crappy homework done at all. i took a nap too. lol. 

every time i see an Ad endorsed by some celebrity, i can't help but think how fake.
especially when they have things like 'i use so-and-so-product because i believe in it/want the best' (or insert any corny thing you can think of).
seriously! what are they thinking?? well, we know the celebrities are thinking of the money..and the free products they'll get from then on *rolls eyes* ...

anyway, i was lamenting on the pathetic state of Singapore's uh..entertainment industry.
now i know why i love the internet so much.
looking at what we have on television (local programmes i mean) im sure you'd understand.
i used to watch those chinese dramas on channel 8. now, it is just crap.
the acting is lousy. the storyline is lousy.
even when they borrow some HK/Taiwanese actor/actress, they can't save the doomed prg.

hell, u know that never-ending soap zhen qing (?)
ya ok. my chinese sux.
even that show is more interesting! or at least, has better acting. the story got extremely boring after the, i dunno, hundred-millionth episode. always someone die. someone robbed. someone kidnapped. on and on and on and on...

sometimes they air lousy foreign serials. like that show my dad loves so much. that extremely long winded, confusing show with lousy special effects and, well, do you really want me to go on?

on a side note,
youve heard of 40 on 40 ? that propaganda show?
why do they have subtitles? we understand the narrator/presenter perfectly well. his english isnt that bad. i'd say this was one of the better shows he's been on. Remember Triple 9?
(hah. bad way of comparing stuff la. these 2 prgs are the only ones ive seen him in)
oh yea. the only compliment i can give Triple 9? good job on the makeup. i never wldve known he (Yu Beng is his name, i think) was only in his twenties then. i think.

noticed the strikeout on propaganda? lol. im still wondering if propaganda is the right word la. but it feels right. HAH. trying to stir up some patriotism, them.
(if i fail to blog anymore, you know some secret government agency has got to me. in the event that that happens, remember me. *paranoid*)

on a totally different matter altogether, there are so many ants on the computer table. i think i should stop having meals before the PC. the ants are crawling all over me. and the occasional one gives me a nasty bite too, that sonofabitch.

missed my previous chem practical
coincidently, that was the practical that we had to write a report on.
to include: discussion on observations and results obtained during practical, possible reasons behind it.

righto. of all days. of all practicals. i had to miss this one.
and what were we doing?
Gravimetric analysis.
what's that, you say?
its just a nice name for a troublesome procedure.
an experiment i have never done.
it's not Volumetric Analysis. it's not Qualitative Analysis.
it's not anything ive done a million times before.

it's freakin' gravimetric analysis.

wth am i gonna write for observations and results if i've never seen it man
and that section's 30% of the report!
argh.
lecturer said i was gonna have trouble with that section.

damn.
i hate having to find things out from my classmates.
so much effort. they make me repeat so much too.

heh.

bleah. enough complaining.
think i'll just sit on it for now.
meanwhile, better get some other crappy homework done.

i hate having to repeat myself

obviously, if that person didnt hear clearly, repeating is no problem
but if that person totally didnt hear/see/ignored what i said, that's another story, ainnit?

argh.
but that's the way it is, ainnit?

repeat away~

speaking of repeating
i made the same mistake again.
you know pastamania, al funghi
damn yummy eh? but a little is all right. the whole plate is torture.
i told myself i will never ever ever eat it again, but i have this thing for creamy pasta
*drools* and shiitake mushrooms (or even mushrooms in general)
anyway, i won't do it again.

lol

"Po-Tay-To"
"Po-Ta-To"
cant rmb, maybe it was from Dilbert. the comic strip.

next time i'll refer to potatoes as "ta(y)ters" (just like Sam in LOTR)
see who understands

update!
i think it's safe to declare that whatever i had set out to do,
it is impossible to succeed.
so.
lets just leave it at that.

w00t
jac bought HP!
i am gonna stay up all night reading it man,
just like how i devoured The Order of The Phoenix in 12 hours.

no wonder why im wearing glasses.

oh yea, had General eye checkup ytd
eyeball's been prodded, eyelid's been flipped, and i'd been told to read letters off charts so much i almost went mad. i feel like my eye's been violated in some way.
like aliens abducted me to examine my eye.
oh well.

w00t!
dreamt of good charlotte man!
this time i dreamt of everyone except Paul.
:S
oh, but this dream was bloody cool man.

cool.

oh btw, 2 posts ago i said i'd tell you if i managed to suppress my laughter?
its official: not possible.
technically, it is not impossible la, but i'd have to conciously keep myself in check the whole day, and that is too much work.

hm. ok. so Day 1 was a failure.
might or might not keep this up, so we'll see.

wow. checkout the time. i don't think ive blogged so early before.
w00t!

i come with a message.

Do not. i repeat. DO NOT join Dip. in Optometry in SP unless
a) God's messenger appeared to you in a dream and said 'you have been chosen'
b) you have a passion for it
or c) you have no choice.

also, DOPT is a bigger no-no if you are like me (or belong to a minority group)
no, i don't mean race.
if you suay suay like me and end up in a class, or rather a YEAR with no one who's like you
then may god have mercy on your soul.
or satan, if you happen to be a satan worshipper.

2 projects and i feel like ripping someone's head off.
nah, im not mad at anyone in particular
just a clash of style.

so whats happened to make me say this?
hah. let me tell you what happened today...

today i bitched a lot.
we were at bugis, thinking intending to buy a circuit kit thingy for our IDEA project.
our options: $60 kit, $20 kit or $500. $500 was for exactly what we wanted. $60 and $20 were just stand ins to fool the lecturer.

initially, they wanted to buy the $60 kit. but i said:
im not for it. spending so much money on this gadget which we will never have any use for after this module is not worth it. what kinda module makes you pay for your grade? etc were some of my retorts.
you know me. when im set on not paying, i will not give in. so i bitched for about 10 minutes

so, they decided on the $20 kit. and i said:
i feel if we want a prototype, it is either get EXACTLY what we planned on (which wld cost $500) or don't do one at all. the lecturer will not be that impressed with our replacement to award us high marks.
btw, $20 kit means press this button, light comes on. press again, light goes off.
they were gonna make me pay $7 for a light switch. so i said,
you want to show the lecturer the LED that goes on and off? why don't you buy him a TOY?!

argh, but one girl was SO SO SO INTENT on getting a good grade
(i still believe what we bought wouldnt impress because it just wasnt what we wanted)
she was adamant about buying it.
i had managed to persuade another girl that buying these kits were not worth the money. at most we get 5 more points.
so now we have 1 stubborn girl, 1 girl who could be swayed easily, and 2 girls who were against the idea.

and you know what happened in the end?
we bought the $20 kit.
Why?
because that stubborn mule was so freakin' stubborn

i cant believe i gave in to her.
just for a grade, she was willing to spend so much money.
(ok, so $10 isnt really that much. but considering the circumstances, it was)

and how does this relate to joining DOPT?
simple.
DOPT students want to excel. they are damn kiasu. wanna be the best in EVERYTHING. its driving me up the wall. i wish these people could slack abit. it is freakin frustrating. and to get good grades, they will do almost ANYTHING. including (almost) spending $60 on a stupid IDEA project, which isnt even related to optometry.

anyway
they she just wouldnt believe me when i said the lecturers cant expect us to spend so much money on the prototype. they should have enough sense. common sense. it just isnt practical.
but would she listen? NOOOOOO! she was willing to pay whatever it took to get a few more MEASLY MARKS.

argh. whatever.
im just upset i had to compromise. compromise on something i was very confident i was right about.

oh whatever. life's like that. and we already spent that money.
makes me wanna cuss.

(actually i did curse and swear a lot today. hahaha. but i shant swear here cuz im not that pissed. yet.)

man im feeling so lousy right now

biochem presentation was terrible!
not that i can do anything about it now, so why fret over it
ah, but it's such a bloody pity.

anyway, people on the street have been so polite to me these few days.
extra polite.

went grocery shopping and ive had 3 strangers say 'sorry' in 20 minutes.
and its only a small thing lorh. dunno why they so nice.
maybe its cuz i wasnt wearing an expression eh? wasnt smiling at all.
i wasnt even frowning lei...
how odd.

anyway, i seems when you look scary, people are more likely to be nice to you
hahahah
i think i will laugh/talk/smile abit less eh?

im glad the hols are coming.
im so tired of school.


(half an hour later)
no what am i talking about
i can never stop myself from laughing or smiling or talking.
argh.
i'll let you know if i succeed.

itd be cool to get a tattoo
and a piercing on my lip or something
yea.........
*dreamy*

but a lip piercing would be impossible.
my parents would disown me if i did something like that.
when they found out i had multiple ear piercings, mum was like, don't you dare get another one.
ive pierced my ears only a handful of times, but only 3 survived to this day.

oh dear
what's wrong with me!?
3 years ago if you asked me to pierce my ears i wouldve recoiled in horror.
i paced outside the shop for an hour before going in.
nearly drove weining crazy. she was the one who psychoed me into piercing anyway.
after that first one, the next few piercings were voluntary. hahahah

hai. hopeless, eh?

oh hey
since im so 'free' now i thought i'd, maybe, blog some more.

i was staring down the washing machine
spinning... clothes...swirling water...
suddenly felt like putting my head in.

alright. im weird. boredom does silly things to you.
but if you knew me personally, u'd know i was fully capable of doing weird stuff without any encouragement from boredom.

man, i blog so much, you cant even see the pix of Benji or my long-lost angmoh neighbor anymore.

but whatever.

since im feeling chatty and oh-so-bored, im gonna share a secret with you.
yes you, for indulging me by reading my crap.
ive recently started drooling on my pillow.
weird. i've never done that before. maybe i shld like, stop burying my face in my pillow when i sleep. LOL.
and oh, in case you were wondering, i wasnt drooling when i dreamt of good charlotte.

i was thinking of putting a random script on this page
i saw the script and instructions for about 5 seconds and decided it was too much work.

Benji reminds me of David.
i cant quite put my finger on what exactly it is about Benji. hmmmmm
ah, the hairstyle perhaps?

alright! this kid here's supposed to be our neighbour from way back when i was in kindegarten/nursery. way back when we lived in Bedok. Jac thinks he's Canadian, and pops over to our house once in a while to play with us! i have no memory of him. hai. oh wells. blame it on too-young-to-have-memories. so if you know him or you are him, i dunno, leave a msg or sth. im quite sure i won't get a response, but no harm trying. man, i don't even know your name. oh yea. what are your pix doing in our photo album? and dude, if youre canadian, why'd u come to singapore man. aint it more fun over there. GC there now ya know. hmm Good Charlotte....

ITS THE ALIEN INVASION! RUN FOR YOUR LIVES!!!!!!!!  

alright. so in my almost 17 years on earth i know
1. i shld ignore what people think of me because we all make mistakes and everyone has an embarrassing moment they wish never happened.
2. not everything will go the way you thought it out to be. but that doesnt mean it's a failure or anything. it just means your expectations were too ideal.
3. when everything seems to be in a whirl, BLOG IT!
4. when nothing is wrong, BLOG IT!
5. i don't actually need a reason to blog. so, BLOG IT!
6. i must stop secretly wishing ill things to befall people i used to know and try to be happy for them
7. if i think i am, i am.
8. i shld stop fighting with myself. i never win.
9. everyone is different. but im still entitled to an opinion. i shld just voice them out a lil less.
10. im happier at SP than i was at MJ. surprise surprise. maybe i didnt make such a bad decision, choosing not to go JC.
11. everyone is different. so i shldnt be so mean right? oh..but that's so hard...
12. whether or not there is a God, we still have to depend on ourselves.
13. now you know why every time someone asks me if i believe in God, i can't give a definite answer. GC/SP/LP have made a bigger impact on my life than God has, even tho ive known about God since god-knows-when.
maybe it's because i grew up with everyone saying 'trust God. God this, God that', that ive become numb to it. (hah! so if i wind up in hell, we know why.)
14. i frequently feel like slapping people (more of an expression than a literal action)
15. i wonder why some people are always plagued by relationship problems. are they like, unable to maintain a good relationship? they can always just give up you know, like i did. as Sanzo says, "bound by nothing you are free of everything". he is so right. oh, but i am in love. in love with Good Charlotte, that is. and i still wish i could clone Benji...and keep the original.
16. if you ask for my name, i will hesitate before telling you because i cant decide between David, Benji or my real name. sometimes i might give all 3.

and here's a list of random stuff that suddenly came up as i blogged
1. BENJI's PICTURE BELONGS ON MY WALL (but right now this 6R pic is in my photo album cuz im afraid if i put it out, the colors will fade)
2. there shouldve been MADDEN TRIPLETS. 2 is not enough.
3. I dreamt of billy, benji and paul but not joel. oh and i hugged them in my dream too. *dreamy* ooh. ok. i didnt know where that came from. ive never even spoken to them. but *giggle* billy was so hug-able. ..........weird.
4. I wish i had another GC shirt cuz now i only have one, i wanna wear it but im afraid the colors will fade :(
5. i really like GC's lyrics. theyre so...inspiring. hm. actually the whole band is inspiring. *dreamy*

the David/Benji/Teresa you know right now was (mainly) molded by
1. Linkin Park, Simple Plan, Good Charlotte (& others in the genre)
2. my traumatisin childhood (shld i be more specific?)
3. my carefree childhood (who said traumatisin childhoods were all bad? there were periods of happiness too ok. lol)
4. Wenly! (hahaha. man i don't even think she knows. think we hung out too much in lower sec)
5. lets not forget secondary school.
6. school, altogether, has made me very confused. i was a tomboy (so they say) in primary school. i dunno what they say when i was sec sch la, but the guys didnt seem to treat me like a girl. so i'll just take it that i was tomboyish la. lol. ppl in poly say im the opposite of tomboy. they also say i am goth. and punk. *confused* oh yea. my mum says i walk like a guy :( i beg to differ. *sigh* BUT to set the record straight, i am not lesbian la. walao :\ neither do i have anything against homosexuals, although i have less tolerance for lesbians. lol. somehow seeing 2 guys acting like a couple is an amusing sight to me. 2 girls? different story.


hahaha. so chatty today. wonder why.
between this post and the next, you'll know im thinking of Good Charlotte.

apparently some people don't even know what punk is.
when i said 'man, so many punks at GC concert'
they go "Punks?"
and someone offers an explanation
"You know, those people who dress like theyre girls. guys who dress like girls. girls who dress like guys..."

WTH?!

i cant stop thinking about GC!!
ok ok, its only Benji
he keeps popping up in my head every few seconds.
i cant study like this
cant concentrate
and i got Biochem test tmr!
Genopt next week!
and presentations!
!!!!!!!

oh but.. benji!!
let's clone him.
i'll keep the original one.

this isnt the best pic of Benji, though it is one of the most focused ones i have. see that smiling face on the far left? Jac's crazy about him. and he isnt even part of GC. think he's just a security guard. but he is kinda cute. always smiling. we waved to him before the concert started. that confused him. hahahahahaha.

alright i think i'll actually say something beyond "it rocked!" to describe yesterday's concert.

other than security being a big pain (i couldnt stop yelling AHHHHHH BITCH I WANT MY CAMERA!!! for like 10 minutes)
the crowd was very very very 'in' it man, it was worse the one's at linkin park's and Simple plan's concerts (even though i know some of us have been to all three)

it was ok while we waited, but when they played the intro song for the band to come on stage, the crowd went crazy. i mean, there wasnt ANYONE on stage YET but it felt like all hell broke loose or sth. i almost lost my ear and my eye before GC started on their first song.
and it was like this for most of the concert, everyone pushing like crazy, but we soon got used to it la, although not before i almost lost my shoe or almost strangling someone. man, i have never grabbed someone's neck so hard! LOL i was trying to keep myself frm falling backwards; everyone behind me was like on the ground on top of one another. i'd been there, done that at the simple plan gig and it aint sth i was looking forward to in this concert. i ended up sitting on someone's legs though. not someone who was flat on the ground, but i dunno...that person's legs made a perfect chair shape for me to sit on. so weird. i was worried i might crush her knees.

but whatever.

i managed to stop thinking about whether i was gonna die there long enough to enjoy GC's performance. (WHICH TOTALLY ROCKED. i din know what to expect. they weren't like LP or SP.. billy looked so *ahem* HOTT playin the guitar. paul looked like he'd taken some ecstacy. Benji, as usual, didnt move around too much, but he sure had a lot of crap. lol. Benji's cute :P Joel's just Joel. they really know how to work a crowd. they all look better in person too. Benji definately looks cuter. so does billy. so does joel. i think maybe only paul looks the same as in pics.)

oh yea, we bought GC shirts right? and i wore it over the shirt i wore to the concert. so 2 shirts. both wet (as in clingy wet) with sweat. my sweat and strangers' sweat. HAH im sure that ang moh's sweat was on my shirt man, they sweat so much. actually we all sweat a lot. and i was so stinky after the concert, no one dared to sit beside me in the train on the way home.
:(
cannot blame them. i could smell myself too. :S

can't wait for their next concert!

and oh, i forgot to mention. while we were queuing outside the stadium, those pesky angmoh's started to cut queue lorh. so annoying. so we asked those ppl in front of us to move in to fill the empty space in front so angmoh will stop jumping queue. so we move la. but ppl behind us thought they were letting us in the stadium and there was this mad rush to the entrance.
:( in the end queue kena cut even more. nvm. learning experience. next time won't make same mistake. anyway got this girl in frnt. we asked her to move but she din wanna, so the angmoh got chance to jump queue. fuck lor. all her fault. keep giving us attitude and refusing to shift. we knew the angmoh sure to jump queue one but that stubborn cow just won't move. wait until angmoh come in liao then shift abit late LORH!

bah whatever.
that's enough singlish for one day.

cant wait for their next gig YAY!

hahaha. this is crap la. but since i have so few pics, might as well. note the date i bought the tix 8 June. Date of Concert: 12 July. hahahhahahaha  

after the concert. bought a red GC shirt. Jac wearing a black GC shirt. they rocked man! ppl were surprisingly mosh-y. we all almost died. unfortch digital cams werent allowed (that bitch) they actually used a metal scanner to search us! even had to take off my studded belt (ah!!! DIE YOU BITCH!) so all the pics i have are those of benji and billy, whom we saw after soundcheck. :( AWESOME CONCERT tho. they ROCK live. 

AH BENJI! BENJI BENJI ROCKS TOO!!!!!!!! very crappy too. 

BILLY!!! HE ROCKS!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEee!!!!!!!11 

One day we'll all look back on this and think
what the hell were we thinking!?!

i dunno.
i always look back and yell at myself
what the hell was i thinking!?!!
whether it was something i said, the clothes i wore, my hair, how i carried myself etc

so maybe 5 years from now i'll go
what the hell was i thinking!?!?
again.

toodles.

every person is different.
i guess it's safe to say im not like the normal people
thank god.

it is nice to see people at their most vulnerable
at least i know they are not infallible
these things set me thinking

sometimes it makes me want to empathize with em, sometimes i just wanna gloat.
and im sure im not the only one who feels this way

that is why you know never to show your feelings lest someone takes satisfaction in your suffering.

oh but isnt it nice to be the gloater instead of the gloatee.

there are 2 kinds of people:
the ones who are heard, and the one who speaks but is ignored.

the one who speaks and is heard is probably the leader.
just say the word, and it is done.

the one whom no one listens to repeats himself a million times and still no one hears him.
just like an irritating fly whose buzz you hear in the background. annoying but not important.

if you are one who speaks but isnt heard,
the people around you can be split into these 2 general catagories:
the ones who hear you but don't care about your input, and those who don't know you exist.

makes communicating a real pain in the ass cuz you'd be repeating yourself so many times
and if your input happens to be important, its hard for you not to go "I told you SO" when something goes wrong.
furthermore, things like "i told you so" don't help the situation cuz everyone is already very annoyed,
and that makes you a real pain to be with, doesnt it?

now what?