Thirteen Rabbits

sometimes i feel like...
swearing like crazy
mugging all day
pigging out all day
sleeping in all day
rotting all day

sometimes i dream of...
killing people
being spiderman
being rich!!!

sometimes i think of...
simple plan concert / LP concert / GC concert
destroying stuff
the future

sometimes i wonder if ...
im forgettable (ie u meet me, but u'd nv rmb me)
i'll ever lose this freakin' 5 kg. (5 kg only. not too much to ask right. maybe if i WILL it, it WILL become reality, eh?)
people think im scary
people think im a confident person
people can tell what im thinking

i pray that
i'll never blend in with the crowd

sometimes i pretend that
i can play the guitar. lol
or drums. lol.
or sing. lol!

sometimes i wish that...
i wouldnt blush so easily
my teeth were smaller (lol)
my hair wasnt so freakin curly/frizzy -_-
i had 6/6 vision
im a genius
i was filthy rich!

becuz
filthy rich = no need to work = no need to study (except for self improvement/for fun/to past time) !

humans are selfish by nature.

the first thing they think of is always of themselves or for themselves

argh
at the rate im going, im really gonna fail.
and this isnt pessimism
this is realism.
um. yea.

i can't figure out how to do Genopt or Chem questions!!

i wish i could ask somebody but there's no one available!

i can't ask my classmates after class without feeling like im bothering them
actually, i can't ask them anything anytime without feeling like im annoying them.

and the only person im comfortable with asking to stay back after sch to study is more clueless than me.
a lot of help she'll be, right?
:\

i will not fail my exams...
i will not fail my exams...
i will not fail my exams...
i will not fail my exams...
i will not fail my exams...

maybe if i repeat this enough i won't fail my exams

im not so afraid i'll drool on the train anymore

im afraid i'll snore.

i believe i did
snore
today

it was more like a grunt, so to speak.

freakin embarressing

i pretended that i was just clearing a stuffy nose
hoped that no one heard me.

lol

i do hope all this studying pays off.

hello, im back to complain.
and the topic is none other than my teammate!

she's sppose to write an essay
an essay goddamnit
and what did she give me?

i guess you can call it an essay.
an essay with horrible sentence structure.
sometimes they are just sentence fragments
sometimes she uses so many commas, one sentence occupies 4 lines.
and the font size is 10, mind you!

whats more
i have a feeling she's just copying and pasting.
you know when people present facts, they use bullets or numbers, and the facts are in point form?
im sure she's just removed the bullets and condensed all the points into one sentence, seperating each point with a COMMA.
she didnt even bother to rewrite the points in complete sentences!

im freakin sure her english isnt this bad.
if it was and she managed to pass her O level english,
i must write a letter to MOE to tell the cambridge markers to be less lenient.
Cambridge markers must be sleeping.

its obvious she hasnt even put in much effort

preposterous!
thats the word.

its making editing so hard.
i can't even understand what she's trying to say.
it doesnt help that this is a bio essay and there's so much bio jargon

i am so bored of soy!!!!

every time i see meat, i start droooooooooling
i miss my double cheeseburger.
quarter pounder with cheese.
whopper.
(oh all that beef!)

i don't really miss fish, cuz this soy-fish tastes quite like the real thing.

but soy chicken's got a long way to go

does soy beef exist?
maybe? i havent tasted that yet, but i doubt it'll do the real thing justice.

taste aside, the texture of soy fish, chicken and whatnot is all the same. since they are ALL SOY damn sian man.

*

this is a great place for the spider to take up residence.
it might just save me from all those nasty nasty mosquitos.
maybe singapore needs to introduce more lizards or spiders to drains eh. then we wouldnt have so many dengue cases.
alternatively they can fog more. fog until the smell is permanent, that is. might be lethal enough to kill humans too, perhaps?

*

my class is so competitive, i want to murder them.
some are born intelligent, others are so hardworking.
i am neither.
:(
failing tests in sec sch (see: Amaths) has made me numb
i am not as hardworking as i wldve been.
bad bad bad.
coupled with the fact that i didnt have to work too hard to be in the top 10% in this ah beng sch, i have become super lazy.
i left sec sch accepting that those people are impossible to beat.
bad, right?
this is laziness taking root.

i was, u cld say, accustomed to being at the top few in sch
(pardon me. im not trying to sound proud or anything)
now that i am not, i just want to give up.
either way, im not giving my best.
argh. i deserve to be slapped.

on the bright side, i havent failed anything yet. marks range from 60% to 78% or so.
on the other hand, others are getting like 90%
i have a motive to kill now.

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ASTAR is fuckin bias right.
if u read today's ST on biopolis, u might agree
maybe they arent rejecting poly grads altogether, but they are still damn bias.
and its not like i have ANY chance of getthing THEIR scholarships. lol
i sppose it is only logical to want to invest in the best, but that doesnt change what i think of them.

my opinion of ASTAR getting from bad to worse.
lol.
they are starting to sound like that high-maintenance girlfriend you love to hate.

*

PS:
apologies for this very random post. im too lazy to post seperate issues seperately. lol

i just ordered one and a half years' supply of contact lenses.
free.

thats one nice f-word.

i can't seem to focus
i hear people speak, but i don't can't listen.
i have to really concentrate
and even then, sometimes their words still don't make sense.

anyway
i didnt bring my keys went i went out.
Jac locked the door, so she had my key.
i did many rather thoughtless things today
the first being i didnt think of calling home to check if anyone was in to open the door for me.
OR
maybe i did call (i can't remember. i can't concentrate, i said. i don't know whats wrong with my brain :( ) but no one was home then.
oh whatever.

i ended up rotting at weining's house.
i know, its weird. we've only chatted a few times since sch started, and i just pop in all of a sudden.
dunno la. feel like i very selfish lidat lei. ?_?
but the afternoon passed quite well, i shld say. quite fun.
lol.
and her grandma made veg curry and gave me some too
haha
i hardly remember how this curry thing started.
i think i complimented her cooking, and from then on i always had something to eat.
:D how nice.

oh anyways
it turns out mum and dad were home.
didnt know since when, but when i called back (for some reason i decided to call. my brain, something is wrong.) there they were. it was 7pm already. lol.

wasted la. i was hoping to catch up on sleep today, since sch ended at 12 NOON.
oh wells.
maybe this sacrifice was worth it la
for 3 reasons:
1. got to catch up w/ wn.
2. borrowed a book from library (Robin Cook - seizure) and actually got some reading done. other than Harry Potter, i havent been reading. except for that one day i suddenly felt like reading The Little Prince.
3. had a decent meal. went to Loyang pt w/ my parents. havent had a ride in the car in ages. havent gone out with my parents in eons.

guess it wasnt too bad.
i'd say i actually benefitted from being locked outta the house.
cheers.

so im sitting here
wondering what smells like a dog
then i realise it's me.

shld just stick to my old shower foam.
ho ho ho!

i cant help it
this 'game' is so bo liao its funny
at least for awhile.
lol
http://www.milbestlight.com/swf/game/game1.swf

i got the link from thesneeze.com
and he got it from someone else.
check out thesneeze.com when ure free, its great.

here's a post all starting with "I".

i wish i could decide on something and stop there instead of turning around and slapping myself with contridictions.

i think im screwing up school.

im gonna stick to a vegetarian diet for good. tempt me not.

i will learn to play the guitar one day. One. Day.

i will stop biting my lip.

i will drink more water.

i will stop contridicting myself.

i must never lose sight of my goals or values.

i will learn to play the freakin' guitar damnit!

i will not criticize so much.

i will talk less.

i will put up with this pain in my head.

i will kill every ant that pisses me off.

i will stop twiddling with my second piercing. or is it third?

i should stop thinking these nasty nasty things about people.

i will learn to forgive and, hopefully, forget.

i will not turn pink around the ears.

i will fix my back. and my knee. somehow.


i will do something drastic, something different, one fine day. i will. just because.

Travis Barker's wife doesnt seem as stupid as Jessica Simpson.

i suppose if u wanna get married, u can at least get an intelligent wife.

of course, ive only watch Meet The Barkers twice. so who knows, maybe she won't turn out so clever after all.
maybe its a celebrity/celebrity-wife thing?

Britney,...hmhm.
ahem.

im terrified id wake up on the train and find that ive drooled down my shirt.