Thirteen Rabbits

oh no wth i saw the lyrics to a christian song
its a song i learnt in gb.
must get it out of my head
u know those songs la, tune dammmmmmmmn catchy one.

i was reading the lyrics and thinking
wtfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff these lyrics are stupid.
pui pui pui who will believe all the things you say/are singing about god!
why? why do you say god is kind? god is love? god is forgiving? god is this and that??
based on what man? WHAT???

IMO,
it sounds like some propaganda song. since the first song i learnt in gb, this is the only thought in my head when i see the lyrics - propaganda. ridiculously fake. im not saying the lyrics are lies or anything, i just cant grasp how anyone can be so crazy about god to say such things. it baffles me. very very very much.

(i prefer the hymns we had in primary school. they sound SO MUCH better and the lyrics not that silly also. altho they were many parts with the god is blahblahblah and all that.)

aiyah maybe i should stop here. these things i can go on and on
(and no one can change my stand. mostly cuz i just wont listen. such 'discussions' always end with me nodding my head in 'agreement' just to get the other party to shut up. or is it because every single person who's tried to convert me tells me the same thing ive become immune to it? hmm..)

which reminds me everytime people from christian organisations got camp or what ask me to join i just say no directly. no point letting them waste their breath when my mind's already made up. i used to be polite and not turn them down right away (even tho i knew i wasnt interested), but as i said, no point la.

ah, i digress.
i shant go on, cuz i know ive covered this topic in some previous post.

ya la ya la, im going to hell. (i heard yngwie went the 'other way')

there's only so many things to blog about: complain about politics, complain about religion, complain about people, complain about school, complain about life. complain about society.
these broad catagories pretty much cover everything under the sun

wa today went bowling got 3 strikes in a row ah HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
but the rest of the games quite shitty. highest 133 only.
5 games ah~ play until knuckles swollen.
play bass also nv play until lidat before.

and i broke record for playing bass late at night.
130am still playing. hahahhaa. obviously i turned the volume waaaaaay down.
actually might as well play without the amp already.

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holidays holidays~~~ makes me want to start reading books. sucks cuz thats the reason im myopic now anyway. damn holidays and damn library la.

i feel like reading lotr again. but scared myopia worsen.
who takes vision breaks when you read sth interesting right?
hai.

to a certain mr Q :
used to think you wer kinda cool but realised after a while youre not hardcore enough at all, you preppy piece of chicken feed.
i don't appreciate your suggestions to change the way i am thankyouverymuch
i don't even like you being on my msn list cuz all it does is remind me of things i'd rather forget.
but i still keep you there cuz thats the only way i can contact you. sort of.
im wondering why on earth i still want to k.i.t (even though we havent spoken in a year or so) but i guess thats just one of the mysteries of life.

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to a certain ms. whatsyourinitialagain? i honestly cant remember. lets just call you douchebag.
i don't like you. (i believe this feeling is mutual. )
don't like your attitude, don't like the way you look. don't like the way you speak. don't like the things you say. don't like your very existance.
havent heard from you in um, 6 years, but nothing's changed on my side.
yea i know, six years is a long time to carry a grudge. i don't like to think of myself as such a petty person but you really suck mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn HAHAHAHA BUT I BET YOURE STill very short. HAHAHA. :P
sometimes i imagine you reincarnating into a suppository.

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to number2
sorry bout that. hahahahhaa. youre a nice person though you stutter quite a bit. its kinda funny actually.
oops shouldnt say that. hahahahah wth lol

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to number1
now and then when i think of you, i wonder if you still wear those black shoes with high white socks. and those 3/4 pants + calvin and hobbes shirt. that image really stuck with me.

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to the alien i used to hang out with
always envied you. hai-i-am-so-pathetic.
you changed, i think, to one of those type of people i .. dont like. cuz you hang out with the kind of people i... don't like. hahahhahaha. but being the biased shit i am i don't think it will affect me much. or maybe im just in denial.

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to "assface" (i bet you know who you are)
i boss you around way too much but you nv complain. so i will continue to do so because its fun. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH. that said youre a good friend (cuz you do so many things for me and always compromise. HAHAHAAHHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~)

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to the most talented woman on earth
i take you for granted. sorry. i don't say the right things and say too much of the wrong things.

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to god
im still wondering if youre real. in my head, sometimes you are, sometimes youre not.
im still struggling with the miracle~coincidence thing. very confusing shit.

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wa late liao. feels good to type all this shit. *yawn*
i could say something about everyone, but that would take all day.
and i know most of you arent interested to know what i have to say anyway

ok la i decided liao
not going to use 0.45 guage liao la. use lighter one. :S

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anyway today (or rather ytd)
carls jr got no onion rings
wtf. wtf .wtf. wtf.
asked 5 times throughout the day
no onions rings.
bloody hell.

jac and sp very disgusting. talk about shit and make vomiting noises at nydc.
freaks.

oh and i was very tempted to eat meat today.
first was at carls jr, cuz i havent eaten a burger in like a gazillion years
(one yr only la heh)
and then at yoshinoya
they have those fried prawns
man i love those. *drool*

it was so easy to give up meat.
im not so sure about going back to the 'old ways'

hahahaaa this is my pet lizard. ive always wanted one.
not any ordinary house lizard lor, this one came with the orchids.
it even flicks its tongue in and out you know. (cool!)

this is a cool lizard. doesnt run away like house lizards. its nice and slow (fast movements are scary im sure u agree)

i had it for two minutes.
then we gave it to our second floor neighbours.

actually mum forced it to jump off the window ledge la. she didnt want anymore lizards in the house. i saw it drop to the second floor.

i stuck my head in the freezer just now cuz the weather's just freakin warm la. wth.
anyway the freezer has a smell that reminds me of chocolate
or is it because we used to keep chocolates in the freezer so they smelt like that

either way its chocolates and freezers.

omgomgomomgggggggg

ok ok deep breath.
relax.

think happy thoughts. think positive.

bass. maybe playing will help. to hell with the neighbours.
hope the spider's gone. damn spider. black. cant tell if its still there.

i sound neurotic. pfffffffft

must...force...self..to...study.......

3 days from day of exam: paranoia sets in
2 days: nervous~~
1 day: depression
THE day: lost all hope.

for the past 2 papers (afternoon papers)
ive been saying
i'll read thru again in the morning
the morning passes and nothing happens

then i say,
i'll read on the train

i get on the train and decide to take a nap, thinking
i'll read this when i reach redhill
i reach redhill and stare at the passing buildings instead

so i say
i'll read this just before the paper starts, when i reach school
of course i just end up slacking.

walao irritating
super super irritating!

upper and lower eyelashes keep crossing
every other time i blink it feels like i have sticky lids or something

wwttttthhhhh

remember when you were young your parents would make that 'aeroplane' spoonful of food zoom into your mouth?
what's up with that?
is that supposed to make mealtimes more fun?

i remember thinking 'oh no aeroplane is coming. still chewing. oh no. must chew faster. chewing is so troublesome. my mouth's getting tired.. . . but must chew faster'
as you can see mealtimes were stressful for me.
did the thought 'YAY PLANE! MOUTH! YAY!' cross my mind at all?
no.
did it cross your mind?

maybe it's something the adults made up to amuse themselves while the child is chewing. OR
was i just a weird kid?

hmm no, i think not. i think kids don't like it. period.
i was watching a mother do the same thing at the food court the other day. her son was not smiling. just chew chew chewing, looking quite frustrated. i bet he was thinking the same thing i had.

obviously the aeroplane is not for our (the kids') entertainment.

today i learned theres something called a 'greedy gay'
a greedy kind of gay.

no offence to the gay community. or rather, bisexual community.

bored
bored shitless and in no mood to study

so stop asking me how much i study already.

hey isnt chicken little a male? how come he's a chicken?

my sister rockssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
because she bought me a guitar stand!!!!!!!!!!!
yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

she is also very thick skinned to make me tribute a blogpost to her.

what the fuck is wrong with everybody
what the fuck is wrong with feeling hungry 6 hours after a meal
what the fuck is wrong with this fucking place

something is wrong when im not the one losing my temper but the people around me are.

man theres only so many times i can tolerate people getting angry at me for no reason and my patience is wearing thin

im the one who's taking the FUCKING EXAMS so give me a FUCKING BREAK

im stressed enough as it is. and thats saying a lot
thanks for being the supportive family you are.
not.

chatting with sp on msn. hahahaha! girlll~~~~
he just changed his nick to 'hermionie' hahahahahaahaha wtf man lol

wtf siannessssssss
ultimate siannessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
im so sick of studyinggggggg~~~~~~~~~

that fucking list is really pissing me off
waste my time afer patho exam. damnittttttt
how can she fail meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

why is it i can block out so many noises but the one sound i cant drown out is my mum's nagging?

jac english very power.

today i found out the police station is a nice place to hang out
too bad pasir ris not a lot of stations. i think only got one. hahaahaaa

when we were there just now there was a very upset lady and her hyperactive son
hyperactive son (looked like a 5 yr old) running around the station with a bloody weapon but the "policeguys" there nv do anything about it.
mother was talking about divorcing the husband (he is MAD! MAD!), selling the house and moving in with her mother. and something about the maid consipiring with the husband.
hmhm.
police station is so much better than any afternoon soap opera.
and we were only there for 15 minutes.

jac tried telling the kid to sit still cuz he was gonna hurt himself if he continued jumping around, but i don't know if he even heard her
as we were about to leave he asked us, 'leaving so soon? where are you going?'
siaaaaaaaaala his english better than i expected. hahahahaha.
i bet he won't make the mistake of saying 'police guy'

poor kid doesnt know his mother wants a divorce

oh we were at the station to do something about jac's ic. stupid git put it in the washing machine twice now the address is all messed up.
in the end we didnt get the address printed cuz the 'policeguy' was too busy with the distressed woman. but at least the 'policeguy' was very nice.

the silliest thing is, Jac's gonna join ICA already. she can change the bloody address herself why go to the station at all! pfffft

im compelled to update
really nothing much la, din go out . nothing happened.

went to changi airport on saturday.

invented a 'weining repellent' .
cheap and very effective. get yours today!

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also been feeling sleepy like shit past coupla days. want to mug also cannot. sleeping at 12 waking at 9. sux.
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im kinda waiting for my amp to die on me. heh

when i started bass i relied on the pick. and then for some reason i changed to just using my fingers. i don't remember why. think cuz i liked the sound better.
now i cant do shit with a pick.
my picking is worse than when i started.
wtf.

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

think im gonna be deprived of sleep one and a half more weeks.

actually today want to slp on the train. 6 hours a day for 3 days is just wrong. but this old lady sitting next to me cannot sleep straight one. keep bumping into me. she will bump, then straighten up. and then bump again.
like that soooooo annoying how to SIT in peace! much less try to nap. hai.

and then josh was so happy on the train today. after patho test still like that..
if i wasnt so sleepy i'd have ... done something. (to wipe that stupid grin off his face)
glad its over tho. never thought i'd get through these 2-3 weeks.

oh i forgot to go see monica today (technically i went but she wasnt free). still don't know how much i got for pharm test. :(

i did not forget got lesson today ok
i not feeling well lor. woke up with stomach cramps ah. in fact my stomach's still feeling a bit funny.
i know what youre thinking, but i swear im not lying. maybe cuz i have weird eating habits (which i shall not elaborate here lest you get sick over your keyboard or something.) alternatively some people may say its cuz i don't eat meat so i have, uh, weak guts. cuz of the different types of bacteria and all that. i think they come up with the weirdest reasons.

anyhoo apparently monica didnt let ailing see my test paper. want me go ask for it myself.
i only have 2 reactions to that. my first was
1. WTF?!?!?!?!
followed by this a few seconds later
2. WWWWWWWHHHHHAAAAAAAAAT THHHHHE FFFFFUUUUUCCCCKK???
oh wait. 1. and 2. are the same arent they. sorry. i guess that thought stuck a bit longer than expected.
A FEW MORE SECONDS LATER
3. wth OH GOD WHYYYYYY???????????????????????????????????????????

damnit. must be cuz jacob say. he say she won't give and she rly nv give. tch.

and then at 1220pm ailing called me and said vivien holding a last minute lesson. hope i never fail my pract exam. hope i also nv fail my test. if my guts werent throwing a tantrum right now i'd be there.
.
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ok la actually i won't. 2 hours of travel for that? did the math, decided it was not worth it. even lucy agrees.
this is one of those times im glad i have 'friends'.

hai.
the ups and downs of staying so FREAKIN FAR AWAY FROM SCHOOL!!!
pasir ris is a great place to stay in. near the sea. not many people. want to go play play also very convenient. if only SP wasnt like ON THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THIS FREAKIN ISLAND

i should be studying right. i only rmb the first 2 pages of both notes. not good. the further the disease is from the front page the less i rmb of it.
if tmr i cant rmb anything about conjunctivitis i'll just write
lacrimation pain redness itch grittiness loads of swelling, some mucous/some kind of discharge. unilateral .mx antibiotics hot compresses and occasionally some lid scrubs. ddx other causes of red eye.

and for benign tumours it'll be
congenital/early onset (except for xantholasma/papilloma). variable size/numbers/pigmentation/shape cosmetic concern. reassure and monitor for any changes. then some got cheesy material (like viral wart and sebaceous cyst). ddx malignant types. avascular. well defined border. not ulcerated. some are flat some are raised.

sure pass.

oh ya i almost forgot
i think they shldnt make us rmb Mx also. impt thing is to diagnose. once u know what youre dealing with, can always FLIP THE FREAKIN TEXTBOOK to find out what to do next.
in fact ah, subjective and objective presentations are not always accurate also. more so the subjective ones. so we should only have to rmb a few unique points about the disease, which usually isnt a lot. by right we should be using common sense, not memory power.

i am trying very hard to relate/use common sense to study. but i found that god had been stingy in giving me common sense when he made me. instead he gave me a lot of the trait that makes me opt for the easy way out. the trait that makes me do the minimal and still get by. i believe they call it 'laziness'.

after O's when i had to choose a course, i let my dad decide for me. in part cuz im indecisive and had no goal in life and i trust my dad. oh and also i thought optometry mah! EYE ONLY! SO SMALL SURE NOTHING MUCH TO STUDY ONE LA. i mean, what can happen to it right! HAHAHA! and i happily clicked the submit button.

i was wrong.

went to watch Hard Candy with andy ytd
wa that guy in the movie very poor thing.
first his balls kena cut off by a teenager, then he's taser-ed and then he hangs himself at the teen's encouragement.
hai. sad case.

oh ya. i just realise i din pay for anything lei last night
feeling kinda guilty. heh. next time my treat!
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on a totally different issue -

remembered something from nacho libre:
ooxxooXoXXx
Hug hug, kiss kiss, hug hug, big kiss, little hug, kiss kiss, little kiss.

hahahahahaha

wa today was fun
after a pretty boring but much needed pract lab in the morning, met up with weining at orchard.
watched nacho libre. jack black damn funny. he even had a fake accent. singing bits were SO jack black.
tt wn wear heels walk until feet want to die. see la! you'll have to wear 10cm heels to be taller than me! next time dun bother la, torture yourself for what lol.
didnt do much but walk around and EAT EAT EAT
went to suntec's NYDC. i seem to frequent that place a lot.
had baked pasta. was delicious and super filling. stomach almost burst. and then after that even managed to squeeze in ugly cake. this cant do. tmr must go gym already.

spent a lot of money today. $30 on dinner, $10 on movie, $5 on lunch. +$2.... how odd. where did all my money go sia :S

there was this kid on the train
doing cloze passages. wa so long nv do, cant even rmb what theyre called
anyway
this worksheet from british council somemore man
hardcore

very sad tho. why?
1. its english for god's sake
2. youre on the train for cryin out loud, are you so enthusiastic about learning or are you just overworked???

and then as i was walking home i saw 2 ppl walking their dogs. one was a white dog with a stubby tail. skinny. the other was a jack russel. another dog with stubby tail.
dogs ah, are very funny. they want to go forward so much they puuuuuullll on the leash and walk funny. why do they do that? walk slower la, then no need to pull like that what. make life hard for yourself.

speaking of dogs i wish our german shepard did not die. big dogs are so much better than small dogs. no chance of tripping over them see. and they scare people away. oh and the bonus is they can alway sdrag you home if youre tired :D

OK Go - Here It Goes Again

hahah damn i just amused myself by bringing my phone neearrer and furtherrrrrrrrrr from the speakers while making a call. the sound damn funny.

anyway i came here to complain.
ya la i know i complain a lot. u think god gave me 10 fingers for what? to type 10x faster than a guy with only 1 finger la! hahahah i am so lame.
be grateful im not complaining about friendship/BGR problems or whining about life cuz EVERY OTHER TEEN OUT THERE IS DOING THAT ALREADY

back to complaining
my SISTER MY FATHER AND MY MOTHER ARE NOT ON EARTH
EVERYONE GOT HANDPHONE BUT I CANT REACH NOBODY
WTFFF
IM STARVING HERE HELLO??? WHERE IS MY DINNER??@?!?!?!?!?!?$>@#%M@#$^$@

YA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I PWN EVERYONE
LOLLLLLLLLL