Thirteen Rabbits

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nostalgic!

listening to the older plastic tree songs brings me back to clinic at west coast!
specifically
i always get this image of the bus stop at clementi station

and that feeling only wccc has. hahahahhaa
different from spoc.

after listening to kagrra, and siva and gazette's stacked rubbish,
ryutaro's voice is so calming.

at the same time
it kinda makes me sad.

but that's just part of the nostalgia.
or 'Hello' just happens to be a sad song.

i suddenly really like this song again.
hahahhahahaahahaha
revisits are cool

ah.
skype and internet calls.

today is a
i-feel-like-im-losing-myself day.

ah. no. the dreaded topic.

depressing!
again!

but not because of life's questions

but because i want to play bass!
but i have no tabs!
but i want to play!
and i suck at playing by ear!

i suck !
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
*runs into a wall*

hm..



hai.

depressing!
thinking about what to do with my life is depressing

no
actually
realising that im not good enough to do anything with my life
thats depressing

no wait
realising the reason why youre not good enough to do anything because you havent tried your best
now THATS depressing.


ok.
enough.
enough!

no point regretting. no point envying.

zannen desu!

gah.
the phrases i repeat in my head these days.

today i did some stretches.
mainly cuz im sick of feeling so ache-y. like im half alive. half dead. neither here nor there.

stretching is quite fun. because it is quite painful.
but after that i can kick.
too bad perry's not around to kick.
kicking air's not that fun. there's no resistance.

ah
self defence classes were fun.......

but i only remember the kicks
ive forgotten the important stuff
:(

ah. seems like i havent submitted a post for a while now.
not that it matters.

been watching Kenichi. good show. hm. on to episode 42!

im tired.
work tmr. but im still uploading stuff.
next week is gonna be a busy busy busy week :(
4 consec days! :( will work 5 out of 7 days :(

graduation's in slightly over a week!

today
i am looking at basses.
ah. how many years already i still havent bought anything
and yes
still thinking of getting a 5 string bass but i dunno if its gonna be too wide for my hand

im back at ishibashi
and espguitars.com. wishing.

i mean
can u look at that and not drool?
http://www.espguitars.com/basses_f.html
or the EC series
http://www.espguitars.com/basses_ec.html

but i have no money.

poorer than i was 1.5 years ago.

and this is not even a need.
its a want
a very big
expensive
want.

want want want

just for fun.

Metronome - Boku ijin den

hm. ya. i actually have that mp3. and a few others as well. hahahaahaha



this is Zetsubou san.
that i stumbled upon while searching for PVs.
LOL

ok. SERIOUS! this next one is good.


Alice nine - Cosmic world.
that bass looks good. and the guitar solo bit was cool.

dont u think the vocalist is kinda pretty.. for a guy......
HAHAHAHAHA
no, really.

pretty boys.

shld be the guy in the middle la. the pretty one. HAHAHAHA

less pretty boys.

and this is the gazette. who are less pretty but still look not bad la. HAHAHAHAHA

ah. free days always make me look for jrock and anime.

suddenly

sian, today was full of first time contact lens wearers! and everyone took forever!
between 3 to 8 pm! i swear! 2 people only!

and then i had/have this stupid headache cuz my neck/shoulders are just so stiffffffffffffffffffffffffff arrggghhh
i mean they are stiff all the time, but today its like bloody bloody worse!

and then this really weird bug flew into my room. its like a cockroach and like an ant at the same time.
i dont know where it is now i hope it doesnt fly into my mouth while i sleep

and ive been eating a lot even tho i keep telling myself 'just say no; :(

and my whole weekend's gone cuz i'll be working. but thats fine. fine fine fine. i don't go out on weekends anyway.

been thinking of giving myself a treat at a japanese restaurant next week but i might just substitute that with instant ramen.
pales in comparison i know.

just rmb
jeffrey popped by today.
asked me why i waste time doing PT, dun join FT. since the rest of the time im just slacking at home.
nyah nyah nyah whatever la lazy is lazy
also kept asking about citra!
hahaha citra overqualified la!





i forgot to mention

i got some new nightmare/naitomea pics

hahahahaha!

hitsugi hitsugi hitsugi~~~~

he's got some fancy curly maggie mee style fake hair extensions! but i just love his red highlights! gahhhhh

eh then again they arent really highlights, are they?

maybe next time i'll do that!

it must be the weather


why i am so sianzed.

gah.
i sleep too much.
and eat too much.

yet i still have difficulty keeping my eyes converged.

im probably gonna have trouble falling asleep later.
and there's work tmr.

sianzed.


one thing i learnt
it's that

things are rarely worth it.

whatever it is.


it's not worth it.



unfortunately when u think like that
u'll end up not feeling like doing anything
or being anything.

willpower is running low
am starting to get bored of jogging.
cannnnnnot! mustnt give up!

*

ah. was browsing thru my msn list of contacts again.
tch. nothing's changed.
im still very much the same person i was many years ago.
maybe a little more mean now
because i like to laugh at people.

there's the haha kind of laughing at people
and then there's the nasty kind thats more mockery than hilarity.

mostly im the nasty kind.
pretty superficial nasty
but a long lasting nasty.

people who know me
probably know im quite anti......god. and only towards the christian god. mostly because my primary and secondary school days are filled with preaches of how great He is psycho brainwashing shit.
in primary school i thought, oh scary guy. must be a good kid.
in secondary school i thought, are you suree????? *falls asleep*
that slowly evolved to bullllllshit.

which is why christians are the first people i laugh at.
thats a pity cuz some of these people are nice
the only reason i react the way i do is because they believe in that god.
and i can only think that they are the most foolish people in the world.
still i try to keep an open mind. religious freedom, you know?

but i refuse to be persuaded that god is good.
god is evil, i tell you.
if im not mistaken, he's probably more guilty than the devil itself.

this is all hypothetical of course.
all drawn from a very biased source.

(i think that rhymed.)

ah hah!
it is late.
must be the reason for me spewing rubbish.

great!
windy night! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

this weather is just wrong
i miss the air con.

T_T

i wasted a lot of time today
walked from orchard to somerset and back to orchard.
in this hellish weather, no less.
craving for a green tea frappe from starbucks.
i can only imagine.

weekends are no fun for shopping
too many people.
ahhhh they make me uneasy.

hai.

no inspiration.


sian ah sian sian sian sian sian


leslie isnt the only one missing a muse!


i just changed my psp wallpaper :)
i like the colors. and the background. and the subjects.
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA