Thirteen Rabbits

i am so tired.

3 hours of sleep last night. SP is right. my sleeping pattern is screwed.
finally, i was not late for lecture today. woohoo! but that's only because i woke up at 440am.

and then we had instrumentation pract. applanation tonometry.
what that means is local anesthetic! woohoo! because it's just so weird to have someone poking your eye and yet feel nothing. actually last night i was a bit apprehensive abt poking someone's eye. hahaha it wasnt that bad la.
sadly i didnt have time to do a third patient. :( :( i think it was cuz we wasted a lot of time waiting for and arguing with chris ng. i was commenting on how bored he looked, so he retorted by saying i shld be a good patient and sit still.
and things like, 'minus-ing points for forgetting to tell patient not to rub eyes after instilling anesthesia so he was gonna give me an A-' and i was all 'but u were gonna give me an A+ what. minus already shld be A!' haha!
the doctor who was there (since we were using a diagnostic drug) seemed a little intimidating at first, but i guess he's alright. he looked very familiar though. wonder where ive seen him before? conference? hospital?

next week i heard we're doing perkins tonometry!
and then the week after that (or something) we'll be doing binocular indirect ophthalmoscopy or something. which means, mydriatic eyedrops! the world is going to be so glaring after class. somemore class ends at noon. i don't have sunglasses leh, how?

oh ho! TMR is public holiday! GOING johor again!!!!! w0000t!

seh. there are a lot of black ants on my table. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy??????????/ they are so annoying!!!

lesson 2 of Data Handling Skills teaches us how to use excel.........2003!

errrrrrrr oh kay.... a bit outdated but thats fine..

hahaha it's not too different from 2007. probably.

*they call it data handling skills. so im guessing the reason why im so bad at this Statistics thing is cuz im just hopelessly clumsy.

i still dare not attempt the test! even though we get 2 attempts!
hahahahahaha :S

hmmmmmmm now i dare not go for the second attempt.

sweet. today is sweet. today is only 2 hours old, but it's been sweet.

it is sweet for several reasons.

1. no school. OH YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAaa
2. i just ate a stick of kinder bueno OHH YEEEEEEEAAAAAAAA~~~~
3. it looks like it will rain HOOOOOORAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY

hm. thats about it.


im a simple person :)

but im supposed to access the UM blackboard to do the stupid Statistics module. the lessons might as well be written in japanese cuz i don't understand a single word. i suspect statistics was written by aliens.

i don't know why i don't just go to bed. -_-
early day tmr too. actually the timetable changes so much and sometimes we have lessons sometimes we don't, im confused as hell. i don't know if there's tutorial tmr, but im just gonna turn up la. dun have dun have lor.

hai. my GI tract / stomach has been really weird today. it's hurting here and there. first it was low. now it's high. first it was right. now it's left. god knows why. i don't even know if it's hunger. but ive been eating so much (this time im serious) so that can't be right. i feel like there's a rodent running around inside.

grrr.

only good thing tonight is the breeze. it is surpringly cool and refreshing. not that stale stuffy rubbish we've been getting last week.

FMA new ep out. sweet. good show. good animation.

i can't spend any more money la. my bank balance is just about gonna cross that number that i swore never to cross. :(
makes me wish i worked more last year. hahahahahaaa....... actually i did do most of the days they told me to, save for less than a handful? but a handful would still have been a few hundred bucks.................................................almost enough for a bass.............................

ah hahahaha today general medical science taught by Dr Wong (i think thats his surname la)
there is only one word to sum up everything about him la! >> Prince.
prince ah! freaking prince ah!
he's got that really nice deep (but not too deep) voice. excellent enunciation, perfect english, and he's so charismatic and classy! kyaaaaa~~~~~~~~ doesnt hurt that he doesnt look like a troll.
he made the names of bacteria sound so exotic. HAHA (Listeria, Hemophilus, Corynebacterium, neisseria! say it with the prince!)
thats why i say, like a prince laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
he explains every point on the slides, and really tries to simplify things for us. ^^

oh kay la. im not exactly obsessed la. it's just not often u see a doctor (specifically ophthalmologist) who's so nice la. in general i don't have a good impression of doctors la. i think theyre kind of snobbish sometimes. need to work on px communication and rapport.

my fav guy is still ryutaro~~~~~~~~ kekekekekekeke

only 2 hours of lecture today. hehe.

so ailing and i had a very shallow conversation about how shallow we were cuz we were commenting on the errrrr hehehe something and how there must be something wrong with the optometry programme cuz the ppl who join it are so.... ahem. hahahahaa that was all before Dr prince walked in of course. his presence was a most welcome change to the .. environment.

general medical science is a pretty cool module. at the moment its more like microbiology with some pathology. since we get 3 different doctors taking turns to lecture us, i find the notes a bit strange. uh, the notes in document format are too wordy, and i can't really tell where the important points are. if it was written by one of the doctors, then i guess thats why la. not everyone's brain so big can remember a truckload of information / lecture!

Dr Ian covered 2 weeks' worth of lectures in his one week here! so this week we have no lectures for the Psychophysics and Neurophysiology modules! SWEET, eh? im impressed!

breezy night. but the wind is not cool at all. sheesh.

i did some tidying up today. now i can rest my arms on the desk. before, there was a huge pile of files and lecture notes and stuff right in front of me. couldnt even reach the laptop properly. hehe

something came in the mail!


it's my ibanking thingy! i applied for ibanking on thursday. wa they are damn fast to process it!
unfortunately ibanking is another way of spending money.
i remember before i got my ATM card, the balance in my account only went up. never down.
and then when i got my ATM card, it went down just a little bit.
and then i got my debit card and things went downhill from there.
sheesh.

but sweet! i hate going down to the bank. there's always a queue. actually i have no idea what all these people are doing at the bank. i havent even gone to the bank this year. last year i went cuz i needed to get a bank draft... hmm.

today my heart doesnt feel so good. literally.

oh the iB secure device comes with that 4 sticker thingies! cool! it's black and white! COOL! flower motif! cool!

i love how i can do so many things through the net! hehehehehehe

what else..

i feel like im forgetting something pretty important..

sweet. recently ive been saying that a lot.
but sweet! the weekend is sweet. it is nice to not have to go to school.
8am lectures 3 days in a row is not cool! especially when im always late no matter how early i get up!

feels so good to sleep in. with air con! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i made peanut butter chocolate cookies covered in grounded peanuts. kekekeke
theyre still in the oven
i wonder how they'll turn out?

definitely bad news for my diet~

mum made curry chicken last night. it's one of the many foods i cant resist. :(

oooh cookies are out! super nutty~~ super chewy! kekekekekeke
im making the last one extra large!

today is what they call a sunny day.
the weather is 100% fine! but i don't like fine weather.

no, no one said that to me la.

*

today is a 'i hate myself' day. again. ive said that before. but i didnt say that this is part of the reason why i can't find meaning in living. what's the point when every few days the one thought occupying your mind is 'i hate myself'?

sheesh.

but ok. today isnt that bad. today is just 'i hate myself', at least it isnt 'i hate myself' + an avalanche of emoness.

sooooo im still here, wide awake. it's like i split my 7-8 hours worth of sleep into 2 parts. -_-

the mosquito was resting on my bag. once more i fail to kill it.
.
.
oh YIPPEE! just as i typed that the mosquito flew right into my hands! sweet.
and it didnt manage to get a single drop of blood out of me today! yay!

ooh it is still twitching!
.
.
.
ok it stopped twitching.

hhahahahaah!

i doubt i kill more than 2 a year.

i can finally sleep in peace!

and SIT in peace. every time one of them comes along i have to keep moving my legs to save myself from a lot of itch.

*

i know im very clumsy. things just slip from my hands all the time. and mum likes to nag at me abt that. but it's not like i can help it! she says i shld be more careful. but not in a motherly don't-hurt-yourself kind of tone. well what do u expect me to do? CONCENTRATE when i want to pick something up? who the hell does that? except perhaps ppl in physiotherapy. gah.

now i feel like eating cheese pancake form mrbean. i shldnt put the coupons in front of me.

the price of food is getting quite ridiculous these days. please stop making me eat!

sometimes i court trouble. i read a blog today. a christian's blog. uh oh. i could smell trouble before i finished reading the first half of the first sentence. but i continued reading. i will never be able to understand what goes on in the minds of christians la. never. i probably understand lizards more than i understand that group of people. or maybe im just really bad at keeping faith. i don't hate them, i just don't get them. i also doubt my ability/willingness to try to understand.
haha

didnt i say i want to have faith in people? amai, amai! i am courting trouble.

sometimes i want to give up on hope. every other day is a tug of war between giving up and holding on. faith la. faith is a very troublesome 5 letter word.

i hate everything about myself today.

recently ive been pretty pissed at some people. um. hai. so annoying. makes me want to forsake my ties with everybody. almost everybody. haha. tch. but i can't.
this thing with people is so much trouble. i wish i was more independent. cuz u can't depend on others la. people are selfish. people are only there when it's convenient.

im the kind of person who'll believe whatever you tell me. and if it's something promised, i will be waiting for something. no matter how much time has passed. of course if i expect that much of u, i will do the same for you too. so if u change your mind, i hope you'll tell me straight. because im too oblivious to notice subtlety. it is really annoying/disappointing to be left behind. like an insignificant object you forgot existed.

there is a baby lizard behind my plastic tree poster. there is a mosquito somewhere near me.
damn things. gave me a scare when the lizard scrambled out from behind the frame, trying to get dinner. but it missed.

i love lizards for eating bugs, but i hate how stupid they are! how they always 'run' off in the wrong direction, or freeze and think we cant see them. they are so unpredictable because they always end up doing something STUPID.

the mosquito is still somewhere. (Bad news for me) it's a super mosquito, because it is a silent one i swear that thing was flying right next to my ear and i didnt hear a thing. didnt know it was there until i saw it an inch from my eye.
:(

i had dinner! good salmon! but feel like ive overeaten. :(
i know i say this too much, but i ate a lot today! 4 slices of bread, a bowl of chicken soup, 2 oranges and then dinner just now! :(

and then i slept the evening away. i always do that :S

today's a pretty uneventful day and i hardly got anything done.

now that im wide awake i wonder when i'll fall asleep. troublesome that my clock's all wrong.

ok this is hilarious

i want to take a nap
but after i lie in bed for one minute, i remember i need to do something.
haha.
not school related though.

ah. peanut butter. we loves peanut butter.

so many things i want to buy.
i need a pair of pumps. need a new bass. need t shirts.

why does sch have to start at 8?????/ can't it start at 9?
it would make a world of difference!
the rush hour crowd is thinner at 8am!
i don't know why, even if i wake at 450am, i still end up 15minutes late for 8am lectures.
hehehe.

finally finally finally cancelled cable channels.

*

im slightly bothered by the fact that i can't read chinese articles. newspapers, magazine, books, whatever.
ive tried to read the headlines of the chinese paper. i recognise the characters, but i have no idea what they mean. it's all because of the way they phrase it la. u know chinese how they always shorten stuff? if the first or second word suffice to get the point across, drop the next character ?

sheesh.

to think i passed my O's... AND RECEIVED THE SAME GRADE AS PHYSICS!
omggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

this semester
i think im in big trouble
1. Statistics.
2: psychophysics
3: optics

3 of my worst worst worst subjects :(

im thinking of food. im thinking of.. japanese food. im thinking of ryutaro's favorite food. im thinking of curry.

i kind of miss ryutaro, so i posted this pic. nothing to do with the post though. heh.

sweet. i got my full registration. sweet. now is fully registered optom. SWEET.
it just sounds nice. HAHA! but i have nowhere to put the cert. i wonder if i shld just stick it on the corner of my plastic tree poster frame just in front of me. haha

went to uniqlo today. they have some pretty cool graphic tees. the rest of the apparel are MUJI ish basic tops. even their sticker has the same colors as MUJI. are they related? there's a basic long hoodie. only $50. but the sleeve was a little short and there wasnt a larger size in stock :( oh well.

my desk is a mess. ive put my drink 1meter away becase it's too dangerous to place it next to my laptop. my lecture notes are everywhere. i have mrbean coupons. i have lotsa rubbish here, but i don't know where to put them :(
small problem la.

i took a nap from 4 to 830! omggggg i don't know why im just so freaking tired! but i believe it's partly cuz i woke at 5am today. i just get the impression i have a lot of things to do.
Starhub hasnt returned my call. i have yet to cancel the stupid channels. damn u!

the other day i went to the photo shop to take some passport sized photos. i tell u that service is the most stupid fucking waste of money in the world. ONE cuz the service was bad. TWO cuz the photos came out bad. and im not talking about how im so awfully un-photogenic. the lighting was bad. there were shadows in places they arent supposed to be!
and THREE i can take better photos of myself with my 2-3 year old MOTORAZR V8 and it wouldnt cost me $12. s0, SCREW YOU!

so ive been so 'busy' lately. busy with sleeping. i don't have time to watch a lot of anime. i don't even have time to reply my facebook wall. and ive been so tired i didnt have the energy to chat much on MSN even though i havent spoken to Venn in years! gah.

i think i expend too much energy talking rubbish.

yay!
mum and dad bought an AC unit for me! kekekekekeke
they said they bought it on impulse :S

im so hungry i don't feel so good.
been quite busy today. time just flew by. sort of. i ... don't quite remember what i was doing though.

hopefully i'll fall asleep soon.

sch at 8 tmr. means i gotta wake at 5!

as i get older, i need more and more time to prepare :S
mostly because i have no clothes to wear.

i tried to call starhub just now. 4 times probably. no one was available.
see la. i knew it. trying to make me put off cancelling the channels so u can cheat more money off us!

haha whatever.

tmr tmr tmr
i gotta make a trip down to OOB. hopefully get my full registration!

lectures today were ... hard to follow, to say the least.
black bodies make stuff like anatomy of the brain seem like child's play?

shits. i was NEVER good at physics. i actually scored the same grade for physics as i did for chinese!!!! and that's saying A LOT!

i hate insects. i so hate insects. why must they be attracted to light. damn buggers. dammit dammit dammit.

my eyes feel so tired.

i miss reading plastic tree lyrics. i'd read the romaji. then the translations. occasionally i'll take a look at the kanji. ah. it's a good way to learn the language.

hmmmmmmm plastic tree's new single. hmmmmmmmmmm dammmmmit i need moneyyyyyy
why do i have such a desire to own it? T_T

the bathroom light isnt working. i can't be bothered to change it. or ask mum to change it. so i'll bathe in the dark. haha. the bathroom's become a good friend of mine. we can't be anything more than friends because im married to my laptop. haha!

i miss bass. hai... i named it Ryu, u know?

the next bass i get i'll probably name it hmm hmmmmmmmmmmmm
not misaki, cuz it's unbecoming of a bass. it sounds so fragile. must be the i's. or the saki bit. seems so feminine. although it can be another saki..

i'll nv choose hiroshi, because of Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge the anime. hahahaha i cant get over that hiroshi. even though bucchi's name is hiroshi! sasabuchi hiroshi!!!

eh. that picture is of hiroshi, from the anime. he is a human anatomy model. :(

akira's name is nice though.
akira's got some sweeeeet tattoos ;)

urgh i feel like crap.

first day of school. very tired. lectures seem ok. i think im just not used to the hours. ahaha. speaking as if we had 6 hours of lectures not stop.
tired is tired la.

today we had one of the lecturers from UM. just for this week i guess. he probably thought he was speaking to a bunch of idiots. which is quite true. i doubt anyone knows anything about the brain. i was just impressed by the fancy names. they are quite fun to say out loud. diencephalon!
wa. that stupid word stuck in my head cuz i was so amused by it. hahaha i don't even know what the hell it is. HAHAHAHAHA

don't have the stamina.

+ the fact that it is really warm right now. ya. even with it being nighttime and all. it is really really really seriously HOT la. wth. need to take another shower later.

+ my right eyelid is sorta swollen. it was swollen. some kind of allergic reaction it seems. but to what i dunno. it has subsided a bit so its not itchy or swollen anymore. well, maybe just a bit swollen. i feel like i just cried a lot. difficult to keep my eye open la. it feels so tired and .. swollen. it sounds worse than it is, thats the only good thing.

and so

i feel like crap.

oh. i ate dinner too. so im feeling very disappointed. tch.

i forgot to call starhub la. screw them and their not letting me cancel the cable channels when i called last month! damn you! do you think im so freaking free to call u so many times? i know u're just hoping i forget or get so busy that i put off calling you for a few weeks so u can bill me more right? screw you!

i just found out dad's paying a lot every month for cable and for maxonline.
cable is almost exclusively used by mum. maxonline is 100% used by me only.
thats over a hundred dollars! takai! damn bloodsuckers!
and the programs are shit too! SHIT, you hear me? SHIT! shit shit shit shit shit!
even mum says the programs are lousy!

and not forgetting mobile phone subscription!
$40 for his own, $25 for mine, $20 for mum's. shitttttttttt them !!
im feeling very anti-telco right now.
bloodsuckers!!!!!! just as bad as the mosquitos! omgggggggg
i am super anti mosquitoes now too.
and anti dust. uh im not repelling dust unfortunately.
i don't know why my skin's so sensitive lately.

tired. itchy. warm.
im in hell! almost.
at least today got a healthy, calming dose of anime.
3rd episode of FMA brotherhood is out!
AND AND AND AND AND
this is super great cuz i was just thinking of xxxholic in school today, how it was such an enjoyable anime and all, better than jigoku shoujo blah blah
AND AND AND
today i saw xxxholic OVA 1 uploaded! w00ts! happy! it's a very good episode too. shaoran from tsubasa! w00ts! i forgot what that story is about. too long ago. hmhmhmhmhmhm i was a bit lost. whatever la! im glad anyway.

anime is my religion. really. we established that at lunch today.

OH HO speaking of lunch
there's subway in school! yaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~~~
it's at the FC with KFC and pizza hut. and they made that place airconditioned. Sweet as! about time! that place was sweltering!
it's great that subway's joined the lot, but i have no intention of eating in school cuz i need to save money... ah well.
today i only spend 60cents in school. for guava. heehee. it was good!

since it's the first week, not many tutorials to attend. school starts at 11 tmr. sweet!
i found myself thinking, man i need a holiday, and then i realised wth, it's only been one day!
oh dear
i hope it is not a sign of things to come. :S

hot ah. dry ah. headache ah.
printer out of ink ah. how to print lecture notes ah.

very tempted to move to the study at least there's a working AC unit.

long day in sch tmr ah. but im considered pretty lucky my phototaking slot for the stupid student card is just before lecture. unlike some ppl who have to reach at 8am or something. poor things. seh. chris ng is going to be one of the lecturers. oh dear. he probably won't pick on me anymore la. haha :S

mannnnn i miss my d string!!!!!!! :( :( :( :( :(

i tried to play Cyan/Shian by Nightmare/Naitomea just now. it's just not the same without a D string! :( :( :( :( :( :(

i can't accept the weather. this hot hot hot hot weather. 30/31/32C is just too much!
even cold water from the tap isnt cold enough anymore :(
making ice might become my next favorite pastime :(
i miss having air conditioning :(

i am very sadded by the weather :(

i wish i lived in a water tank :(

*
i visited topshop at vivo, orchard, suntec and marina before i found the top i was looking for at the raffles branch. i thought the old ones usually went to marina?

i was staring at the uniqlo ad at city hall station. took me a minute to realise メガ・カルチャー read MEGA CULTURE!!!
-_-

i don't like weekend crowds :(
i don't like global warming. i want global cooling.

ok thats a rubbish title.

CPR course today was quite fun. we couldnt have chosen a more slack instructor.

i bought a top from topshop! finally used the stupid $10 voucher. surprisingly there's nothing nice to buy at topshop or forever21. or zara O_O shocked.

oh well. just wait one month see what new stuff they have.

i wanna go uniqlo la. wonder if its all its hyped up to be. but according to lekxuan that place is crowded, so i think i'll wait. and wait and wait.

last free weekend! i heard im in group 2! supposedly group 2's timetable is best la! hahahaha i hope so!

it's annoying how i fail to receive emails from school! wth!

oi.. sian. so sian. no one to talk to. oh my god.

i had a pretty good chat with michelle on FB just now. michelle the one in NZ. she suggested i go take refuge at the ice skating rink at Jurong. i think i will. one day after school (cuz no sense travelling across the island just to cool down)

i want to go IMM's SUPERHUGE DAISO also. ;)

my right leg is aching. my right hand is aching. maybe it's got something to do with the fan always directed at it. hahahahaha
poor hand. not good for bass playing.

even the cable is starting to give me problems. wth.
watching anime like K-ON makes me want to practise! makes me wish i had a working bass! makes me wish i was filthy rich.

i suddenly want the RBX375. one extra string w00t!
gimme gimme gimme! money money money! to buy buy buy!
sweet yummy hunny!

lolxwtf.

i swear i swear i swear
the first few songs i learn will be from BECK and Dir en Grey.

:( active electronics :(

*

am i strange?
im strange. im so strange.

the other night i dreamt i was at a concert. it was SUPPOSED to be Acid Black Cherry (such a random band) but the people on stage were very much angmoh.
technically nothing in my dream said 'this is ABC'.
it just felt like it was supposed to be ABC.
but who the hell are these angmoh ripoffs?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH
very odd.
i think it's because i keep thinking ABC's vocalist looks a bit angmoh cuz his features are kinda sharp. and his overall appearance reminds me of that guy from the Rasmus (in that video where he had feathers sticking out of his head)
what the hell. i feel like ive been cheated by myself.

oh well.
next time just let me dream of plastic tree.
but now that bucchi has left, who's the new drummer?
hai, bucchi~

ok. to be honest i probably don't dream about the other members as much. i just need ryutaro. hahahaha
ryutaro is my McDreamy!
*swoon*

actually, whats so McDreamy about McDreamy?
and whats so great about Brad Pitt?
or whatshisname............ the guy who jumped on Oprah's sofa?
hmmmmmhmmmmmmmmmhmmm that guyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
issssss
gah. i cant recall.

i like that bourne trilogy guy though. just cuz he was so funny in Ocean's.
and the Bourne trilogy's got some sweet fight scenes.

killer heels. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
4 inch really can die. but it looks so goooodddddddd

cpr course tmr. sheesh. must go shopping after that.

i just realised ayumi hamasaki has a very recognizable voice. (mum is watching MTV?!?!?!?!?!)

weather is still very warm. the weather gadget i added for windows sidebar says it is 27C now. ARE YOU SURE?????????????????????
i didnt know 27 was so warm :(
it says every day is about 30C.
ARE YOU SURE?????????????????????

ARE YOU SURE?????????????????????

i wish it was closer to 20 :( :( :( :( :(


im so addicted to anime.
i watch so much anime i cant remember the names (doesnt help that they choose damn strange titles)
i can't remember what episode i stopped at.

i do know , though,
that 07 Ghost is good. new one. only at ep2.
chrome shelled regios

my new favorite anime site is anilinkz! it uploads faster than anijunkie, and they don't usually use megavideo. it's no longer a wait X minutes before i can watch the video again, it's now a permanent 'connection problem'. if only it/they can see me giving it/them the finger.

wheeeeeeeeee
today i am in a good chatty mood. with no one to talk to :( my only option is to blog.

i think miharu/misaki is a nice name, don't you think?
that was totally random!

is it just me or is the news presenter trying to act american?

why does my neighbour have to vacuum at 10pm, every night?

u know me. i need change. i get bored.

this is something different.
i like the picture cuz it looks like Ryutaro. it's Uruha, btw. from the Gazette. hmmmm not my fav gazette member. but then i don't like gazette for their looks. i like them cuz they write some kickass songs with kickass basslines *kickass!*

can ignore the strange words about vampires.

doesnt really look like uruha lei..

did away with the sidebar. tagboard is now right at the bottom. ppl seldom leave msgs anyway.. it's always either Jac or Ben. i think only 2 ppl read my blog T_T nvm i keep it for my own entertainment anyway.

this blogskin isnt very me, eh? nvm i'm still lurking around blogskins.

hai. plastic tree has a new single to be released soon.

no money to buy throw around.

bad times. must tighten belt.

T_T

oi.
In Bruges on HBO!

cant wait for the next episode of Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood.



my cheap IKEA computer table. (well if its from IKEA it's cheap la)
is pretty hardy.
with all the shit i put it through
it's still in god condition, except for the paint thats chipping off at the edges. but thats alright.
im surprised there arent 2 paint-less patches on the surface from me resting my elbows on it so much. im surprised the wood isnt puffed up you know. from all the drinks i spill here.

the ikea drawers are a different story though. i keep spilling contact lens solutions there. haha.



i havent been to ikea in a couple of months :(

HI hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi
that's me still upset.
i don't think i'll get over it till i break something.

what is this? second bout of angsty teenage years? im not even a teenager anymore
what the hell was i doing back then?
i can't remember.

i really really really really really really really really really really really really wish i didnt exist.

mou.

wtf. wtf .wtf. wtf .wtf .wtf

my mum and i have serious communication problems.

she thinks i flare up over the smallest things when i havent.
to be honest, i think the same of her too.

the truth is neither of us are as upset as we sound.

but once the ball starts rolling it just gets blown out of proportion.
last week we argued over boiling water in small pots.
just now we argued over flour.

WHAT THE FUCK.

It's the same pattern every single time.
she says something to tick me off. i retort. we yell. i slam the door. i lock myself in my room. i find something to hit.

IM FED UP AS FUCK
BECAUSE WE JUST GET MAD OVER THE MOST FUCKING TRIVIAL SHIT
I MEAN SERIOUSLY! BOILING WATER? FLOUR? WHAT THE FUCK?! IT'S SO STUPID IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY. ESPECIALLY SINCE IT HAPPENS EVERY FEW DAYS.

it is fucking frustrating to talk to her.

the only times we get along well is when we don't talk much.

the only solution i see is for us to not talk to each other.

rrrreeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

omggggg i laughed at the racist jokes ed forwarded.

me likes the brownies i baked. ^^

this is a random post.because im not sleepy yet.

i i i i i i i i i have a lot of things i want to say
but i'm probably going to just keep them to myself.

im going to get reacquainted with hunger. because i have been overeating the past week.
i am sadded. i feel fat and ugly.
HAHA

oh god. i craving for some tomyum soup.
sour spicy tangy *drool*

miyavi!

i like how he plays the guitar. and i like his style. haha! me like his piercings and hairstyle!

this is my fave miyavi album. i didnt really pay attention to the lyrics until today, when i realised i could understand half of what he's saying. haha! it's a simple but beautiful song

Arigatou mama
itsumo attakai gohan
hontou ni hontou ni kansha shiteru yo
demo ne, mama
tama ni moshi tabe kirenakute nokoshitemo
okuranaide ne

Gomen ne, papa
itsumo katte na koto shite
shinpai ya meiwaku kakete bakari de
demo ne, papa
boku mo ookiku nattara papa mitai ni naru kara mitete ne

Kyou mo "otsukare sama"
itsumo yoru osoku made ganbatte iru no bokura wa shitteru yo
demo ne, papa mo mama mo tama ni wa yasunde ii n da yo
zutto genki de ite ne
nani yori futari nakayoshi de ne

Thanx givin' day

(translated lyrics)

Thank you, Mama
For always making warm meals
I really really appreciate you.
But Mama,
When I ocassionally don't finish eating and there are leftovers, don't be upset, ok?

I'm sorry, Papa
For always doing selfish things
And for making you worry and just causing trouble
But Papa,When I grow up I will be like you, Papa, you'll see

And today "thank you for your hard work"
We know that you always work until late at night
But Papa and Mama, it's ok to rest sometimes
Always be fine
More than anything, the two of you should be good friends

Thanx givin' day
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might as well post more miyavi vids while im here. 2 fav miyavi songs~~~~

i googled my own name just now. HAHAHAHAHAha

oh god im going crazy. 5minutes. i ve been typing and deleting over and over.
5 minutes.

todAY

i hate myself.

because im feeling very fat.

*

i just had a very strong desire to play bass.
it was fun. i played spell magic and black cherry. skipping the notes that are played on D string.
stamina not what it used to be. but it was fun.

then i started a bottom of the death valley riff, skipping every 2 or 3 notes that were played on the D string.

sadded.

i need a higher dosage of anime.

and i need a dose of ryutaro. ^^

i think

i really am addicted to anime. kekekekekekekekekekekeke

...going round and round and round and round
seeing the same scenery rise up and fall away

every day.

*

i don't like to lie. it makes me uneasy. i am an idiot.

to be honest,
im incapable of being 100% honest.

*

fluttering lids.
somewhere, a windchime tinkled.
the cold wind carries a faint scent of loneliness
an imitation. a consolation? a mockery?
ah.. it is this number again.

*

i love words.
but everything my fingers say
defeats the purpose of writing.

*

i am a contradiction. i am a coward.
i am the creaking hinges on a rusty gate.
i am all and then i'm none.
i'm all what i do not say.

*

time is a tricky, misleading little devil.

wtf wtf wtf. i need to retype the post la. pressed ctrlA + delete by accident. no all gone. wtf wtf wtf.
and suay suay the moment i deleted everything, blogger decides to autosave the blank draft. THANKS A LOT.

tch.

nvm.

***********

recently im hooked on Dress by Abingdon boys school. this song is originally performed by the old pros Buck-Tick, but i prefer ABS's cover. BT's version is just creepy. um. it is VERY BT. slow and uh, creepy. but in a good way. BT's video for that song is super creepy. i recommend Romance


awesome.

and then i saw the link to Innocent sorrow. another wonderful song. anime song leh! for dgrayman. good show la, dgrayman. i don't really like lena lee with short hair though. haha!

check out his standard jrock platform shoes.


i always find angmoh in jrock videos strange. i mean, using an angmoh in an asian band's PV la. just strange. like how DeG's Cage PV got that angmoh woman. use a japanese woman la! like Acid black cherry's Spell Magic!

next video i saw was Howling. another anime song. this time for Darker than black. i don't really know much about that show. never finished watching. wonder why. a bit boring for me. and then i probably couldnt find anymore episodes to stream and gave up altogether.


i supposed that corny english monologue at the beginning's got something to do with Darker than Black. contractors. lol.

w00t! last song. i posted this before. Strength. latest anime song! seh, u can measure a band's success by the number of anime songs they perform. unless u play a less-than-mainstream genre i suppose.

even plastic tree has an anime song! kekekekekekekeke



ABS REALLY like their jackets.

*

kk. i suddenly felt like checking out Buck-Tick vids. that guy is really scary.
looks like a vampire. very much so. everyone. im going to have nightmares. but it's pretty cool at the same time! HAHAHAHAHA
one of the guitarists is a leftie? and thats one sweet looking bass~
check out the drummer's mohawk O_O
This is "Romance".


"Kagerou"


his voice is quite special eh?

urgh. it is getting warm.
i need a haircut.
can't go out comfortably without tying up my hair. that's how warm it is. even though it's been a rainy week.

another roadtrip. no big new shopping mall today. just small town coffee shops and roadside stalls
roadside stalls are fun!

but before all that

we took the Tuas checkpoint route. 9:22am we passed SG immigration, crossed the bridge into msian territory.
9:23am stuck in a traffic jam. on secondlink. i never thought it was possible.
10:30am still stuck in the traffic jam. advanced 1km. another 2km to msian checkpoint.
11:43am still stuck in the traffic jam. 1km left to msian checkpoint.
finally at 1:10pm, we made it past immigration.

WTF.

and we all left SG without breakfast. i did eat a bowl of cereal at 5am though. come to think of it ive never really been in a situation where i had no access to food. we were not in SG, not officially in msia. cant go anywhere. starving. stuck in the car. stuck in traffic. listening to BBC radio. (BBC radio still ok. on the journey back mum played celine dion. ok la. Celine dion got good strong voice la. but i think most of the songs she's just shouting away... it got slightly annoying after the 3rd song)

we drove north to Kluang for lunch. so our first decent meal was close to 3pm.
walked around, found nothing to do
drove back south.
passed a roadside stall selling kueh. wa shiok. we bought a big bag of kueh for slightly over RM4. thats crazy cheap la. ha ha ha ha it was damn yummy too. better than any bengawan solo kueh sold in SG. expensive and not that yummy. tch.

also bought lotsa fruit. cheap cheap fruits from roadside stalls. pineapples, mangoes and some root vege.
every time we go to msia i realise how poor my malay is. i believe the 'average' singaporean is supposed to know more malay than me. hmmm the few words i can recognise are awas, emas, keluar, masuk and berhenti (from marching commands while in GB). not counting words like klinik la, cuz those are just 'borrowed english' words. and i can only count to 4 in malay. hahahaha
i think i know more japanese. :S

it rained a lot today. somehow rain in Msia just seems to come down a lot heavier than in SG. the drains were almost overflowing (at some places it was flooded) and u know how huge the drains in msia are. not canal la. but theyre probably at least 5x bigger than the ones here. looked like mini rapids. hahaha

and for dinner we stopped by this place next to pelangi shopping center. just so it won't become a specially-drive-to-kluang-for-lunch day.

barbeque stingray + veg + that orange pork thingy + soup + rice only RM43. thats about SGD18. hahahahahah wth! dirt cheap! and it was quite good too! i ate until i almost puked.

it was all good, i guess. except for the 4 hour jam. whole day just stuck in traffic.

eating a lot ah!

these daytrips to msia are fun~
traffic is a nightmare, i try not to use the toilets, and i cant understand what the locals are saying
but i enjoy the food. i havent tasted enough streetvendor food to know if it's really a lot better than local fare, but at half the price of what u get in sg, even if it tastes mediocre, it's still better!

and with dad to chauffeur us around, i just need to eat, nap, follow, and shop.

oh ya. since it was raining/overcast most of today, it was pretty cool there too! shiok!
and the new msian checkpoint at JB, it's a lot better than the old one la. it's like after u pass the checkpoint, and ure on the way to the causeway, they give u a complimentary scenic (winding) tour of JB before u leave. feels like youre driving on go kart tracks.

maybe going to JB again tmr. good friday mah.

Right now i need to hit something.

stupid song. stupid stupid song. it's so easy i could get away with playing 2 root notes throughout the whole song.

stupid me. i give up on tabbing.

assignment. slow going. not much progress. very sadded.
hope something happens soon.

mum makes the most wicked fried tau kwa with sweet-sour chili sauce!
with a mountain of onions too! hahahahahaha faveeee~~~~`

*

isnt it odd how vascularised the tongue is?
there's blood vessels everywhere~~~~~
tiny capillaries~~~~~~~

omggggggg hottttttttttttttttttttttttttt
as in weather. yucky yucky humid weather -_-

i need to do something about my hair la. straighten it or something. getting quite unruly. needs a cut too. 3 months since my last visit to the salon :S
oh ya. i was supposed to copy that fauxhawk thing from Bucchi. heheheheeheh

3rd post of the day.
i think i will make an avo smoothie later. cant take it anymore!

i wish we had a bath tub! i'll dump ice in the water and stay in there till i look like a wrinkly raisin!!!! i'll probably play PSP games in there too. kekekekekeke that would be fun~

im finally getting the motivation to start doing my assignment. i should do it instead of just talking about almost doing it here. here where no one reads. i don't even know why i blog. i suspect im using it as a procrastination tool. that must be it.

oh ya. it's been quite a while since i went to white sands. its been quite a while since i last stepped out of the house. got an all too familiar feeling of .... sensory overload. slightly la. had to stare at the pavement in front of me. avoid eye contact. listen to Ryutaro's voice on Closer. ahh..

i had forgotten how noisy it is outside. whitesands was surprisingly lively. doesnt anyone have to work? i saw my old colleague fishing for children's clothes from a bargain bin. on the clock too. they always go out walkwalk when theyre supposed to be working. but cant blame them cuz sometimes no curious passer-by/potential customer steps into the shop at all. for hours on end. no one.

dear me. staying home really makes me a cranky anti social jerk. hehehehehehehe
it wasnt so bad when i just returned from NZ. gah. what a waste.

*

that soyjoy office ad made me LOL. XD
the one where the woman 'sits' on an imaginary chair and sounds like she's constipated.

where the hell is the stupid waranty card????

i feel like painting the IKEA poster frame a different color. should i paint it black? or white? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm probably black. maybe i'll grab some paint when i visit art friend. WN told me they might have pleather there. (i havent given up on pleather gloves). oh pleather gloves. the other day i was at far east looking for them. u know that costume shop run by the malays? ah that woman looked and spoke to me like i was stupid when i said i was looking for fingerless gloves that ended around the knuckles instead of the usual half-finger kind. tch. of course i know u need that halffinger thing to keep the glove in place! but not if the gloves are stretchy-fucking-pleather gloves!! FINGERLESS!
tch!

well ive cleared up my desk. can see the satin black finish on the wood. ah. ikea furniture.
ah black satin finish just like the MIJ Edwards Forest Bass that costs around 120 000 yen. excluding shipping and excluding 5th string.
it is a dream. just a dream.

hai.

it is really really warm today.
but i smell rain! looks like it might rain! but the sun's still so strong. urgh. won't it take a nap?
they say the sun's gonna get hotter in a few years? i think i watch too much Discovery/NGC?
and a huge slab of ice is breaking apart somewhere ? kekekekeke isnt that thing bigger than singapore?
(does a quick google check)
haha ya it is larger than singapore. mind boggling. it is probably 100x larger. HAHAHA
i could use some ice right here right now. hmmmmmm no wait i don't want hail. i want snowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww


where the hell is the stupid warranty cardddddddddd

argh. today is not a good day!
it is so warm!!!!!!!!!! yucks!
i took a shower at 430am last night. hahahaha!

my room is a mess. i can't even find the warranty card for the bread maker. i don't even konw if it's in my room. i dont even know if there is a card. i was too busy unpacking the bloody thing to notice. hahahahahhahahahah so auntie, getting excited over something like a bread maker.

nonetheless my room is a mess.
hey it rhymes.

i have an assignment due friday.
i am supposed to tab a song.

did i mention my room is a mess?

i really hate it when my room's so messy!!!! :@

for people who have seen my room and think it's messy on normal days
u are wrong! it only looks messy. it is an organised mess. i know messy people throw these 2 words around a lot, but it's true! it's an organised mess. i could tell you exactly what lay under that gravity defying mountain of stuff made up of a candle, a plastic file, the plastic tree DVD case, shopping receipts, trial contact lenses and my SP lanyard.

actually there's nothing under there but dust.

but thats not the point!

today, it is abnormally messy. the kind of messy that gets on my nerves! :@
i think it has something to do with the 2 pairs of jeans hanging on the backrest of my chair. unbalanced. keeps toppling the chair when i get up. tch.

ive got more than the boogeyman living with me! i got the swamp thing, and probably both freddy and jason lurking around. theyre nicking my stuff! thats why i can't find anything!

and more bad news.
i totally forgot about my lenses. they have been soaking in ultrazyme for the past week. i don't think theyre supposed to stay in there more than half a day? gross.
im down to my last starter kit size of oxysept :( i like H2O2 ~

ooh speaking of contact lens solutions
i just thought of mr rajeev. when we just started having practicals with him. in the beginning i thought he was quite scary. HAHAHAHAHAHA ah he was the one who taught me how to remove lenses by sliding them down first, back when i was a subject for some FYP. and i was just sitting there thinking Wow that was fast
O_O

pro.

i just heard this on the telly and it brought back memories ^^


ben linked me something hilarious!





*
dad's gone overseas for the weekend. ah was it vietnam? somewhere there. ive never been good in geography.

mum bought a bread maker. it's magic! yay to soft bread! goodbye lousy flaky dry storebought bread!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can make all sorts of bread~~~~~~~~~ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh haahahahahah
we're having it with curry chicken later!!!!

ive been watching Antique Bakery the past couple of days. only 12 episodes la. quite nice. but no thats not why im always making bread or breadsticks.
it is the reason why im craving for cake now though.
strawberry shortcakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~
very sweet very creamy shortcakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

it's always been butter lately. i want something sweet for a change.
strawberry jam is good too!

i was playing bejeweled
and things like

'ah, i don't like guys who are so (something)'
and then i thought
'hahah wth. if that happened to me, it'd be a different thing altogether!'
followed by
'haiiiiiii im such a hypocrite....'
'wonder if anyone made lame jokes about hippocrates being a hypocrite??'

and i laughed out loud at my own joke.

haaaaaaiiiiii

it is nighttime. time for melancholy. i cant help it.

let's try some imagery, shall we?

i think my mind is a sea.
not a pretty turquoise color or anything romantic like that. more like a brownish grey.
when the tide is low, u just see exposed rock and coarse sand that hurts your bare feet.
and the waves.. not that kind that crashes to shore with an enthusiastic roar. just feeble waves that lick your ankles. yes, feeble.
annoyingly feeble. feebly annoying. frustrating. like it doesnt want to give up. but isnt trying harder either. half heartedness.

and the shore is littered with, well, litter.
much like the one here also.
and the air isnt refreshing, it doesnt whistle in your ear, or whip your hair around. it is stale. salty. suffocating.

and the litter. floating in this sea. bobs up and down. left, then right. like some bizarre, twisted parade. i swear i saw a broken bottle sneer at me.
makes me sigh every 3 seconds

dull. in all meanings of the word.

can you see it?

...i do have some baked beans left in the can though...

*

oooooh today i made pretzel sticks! yummmm~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
kekekekekekekekekekeke butter goes well with everything~~~
hehehehehehehehe

ah. ive watched so much anime i can't remember them at all.
especially the ones that i checked out because the title seemed promising, but gave up after 1 episode. cuz it was boring, ugly or stupid.
hai.

if there's food in the show, i feel like eating it.
strawberry shortcake~~
miso soup~~~
curry bun~~~
raaaaaaaaamen~~~~~~~
oden~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
*drool*

ack. didnt do homework today.

..it is as if im in the middle of a war now. and we only have baked bean rations. -_-

*

i have been procrastinating!!!!!!!
watched so many anime recently
the latest one is hm whatsitcalled again
chrome shelled regios? HAh?
whatever. it's pretty good. HAHAHAHHAHA
i like it better than kurogane no linebarrels. maybe cuz of the way it's drawn?

ahh
no more nyanko sensei T_T

oh ya. shi~~~~~~~ts.
assignment! assignment ah! shiiiiiiits.
this blackboard interface is damn annoying to use. SHITEMASUKA??!!! KIKOEMASUKA????
Cant someone make it more userfriendly? and more aesthetically pleasing at the same time??????????????? SHEEEEEEESH.

ah but before that due date
jamming ah! jamming~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
hubert's only told me one song. one song??????????@?@?@!?!?!?!?!
what abt other songs? how to practise? how to memorise everything in one day???????????
im too dependent on guitarpro~~~~ T_T
thats 1 thing.
2nd thing is ONE SONG and i still havent memorised it ah!!!!!! WWWWTTTFFFFF it's damn easy too! ang moh rock mah. yellowcard's Only One.
3rd thing is
a bit difficult to practise without D string la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHO~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate how the tuning peg's broken! i hate using studio basses! just doesnt feel right! the fretboard, the neck, everything looks and feels different! i forget what im supposed to play!
T_T
T_T
T_T

for some strange reason the bass riffs that stick in my head are random stuff from DeG's Bottom of the Death Valley, Yokan, and RHCP's Dani California. and then some scarified. doesnt matter if it's an unfamiliar bass. hahaha
ah. the old days.

iiyaaaa. sadded.

*

i liked night-time. it is dark and cool. sometimes the sun seems like such a bother.
but my nighttime vision is pretty poor. not pathologically la. it annoys me that people can see me clearer than i can see them. i don't like people to see me clearly. strange that im studying something to help people see clearer (if irony could kill, this would be the death of me).
i don't want people to see what expression im making. i don't want people to know what im thinking #_#
aiyahhhhh~~ stayed home too long? getting anti-social?

night. i always get melancholic at this time. wonder why?

before i knew it, i didnt like the night as much anymore.
i like morning. between 6 and 9am. when the sun's rising/ just risen. when the air is cool and sweet (sometimes). a good time of day. it isnt excessively bright that i have to squint and look at the ground when i walk.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai. sian.

because i listen to so much plastic tree, ive come to like ferris wheels.
sore dake.

did i dream about ryutaro again? or was it someone else? in the middle of the night, between sleep and wake, i can't tell what is real and what isnt.

planning to go jam this saturday.
without a D string, i wonder how i can practise at home? hai.

ah. today im making english muffins.
it's taking forever to fry/grill them one by one >.< but at least theyre chewy and they taste so good with butter~ kekekekekekekekekekeke

roadtrip yesterday was quite fun la. cheap stuff!

my room's a mess. :(

zoku natsume yuujinchou is over too. see la. sianz. every episode was fun.
nyanko sensei!!!!!

ah
even the korean version of hana yori dango is over.
even Mei chan no shitsuji has ended!

sheesh.

the latest episode of bleach was horrible. filler. i didnt really bother to watch the whole thing.

the last episode fo soul eater was ok. maka's secret weapon? a bit corny la. but ok. kishin wasnt that great afterall.

why all the shows end at the same time?????????????????????