Thirteen Rabbits

1. lost my caller ID service when i recontracted my mobilephone plan. no idea who's calling me and i keep missing calls.
2. a little uneasy dealing with people i hardly know. oh well.
3. feels like the start of something ill - feeling hot and cold at the same time. feeling sleepy. headachey. overall sianness thats different from regular sianness.
4. spent most of the day sleeping but im still sleepy.

oh well.

ive been having some really strange dreams. really strange. involves jumping from one tall building to another. sometimes involves 'jumping' from building to building while riding a motorcycle. thats sth that will only happen in my dreams.

im terrified of that falling feeling.

havent been able to sleep well. partly because i messed up my internal clock. gonna need a sleeping pill soon. mum's very eager to let me have some. haha

i had a rather alice in wonderland -ish dream just now. i was a shapeshifter, an artist, and human and perhaps a few other things as well. there were other artists, a 'red queen', a shady ninja, that korean actor (at least i think he is korean. didnt look japanese. not the usual chinese :S) i saw on how i met your mother, a few soft toy characters
i dreamt it was 40 years in the future. and then i was back in the present day. 'present day' sounds wrong because in that dream world, there is no time.
i dreamt i was stealing chocolates from the queen. didnt have a chance to eat them tho.
sadded.

well.
i remembered something nice :)

good thing it wasnt a rude shock.


being the nerdy student i am, i just spent the last half hour analysing my exam results for the latest round of examinations.
contact lens grade was the worst. followed by advanced neurophysiology and binocular vision.
V. ergonomics was a pleasant surprise tho! pharmacology and ocular disease too!


there's just something about the modules taught by the ophthalmologists. the only preparation i did for General medical science in semester one was to read through the notes and i got 70. this semester's Ocular disease module i probably spent the most time on - and found that i neednt have wasted so much time on it because 80% of the paper was un-revisable. tho i did do better than sem 1, the effort-grade relationship proved to be (very) nonlinear.


if i compared these results with sem 1's
i find myself wondering what on earth i was doing in sem 1!


ok. considering how much i studied for the exams this time round, if i didnt score better i wld be really pissed.


now i can throw away the revision notes. i'd been keeping them in case i needed to resit a paper. heh.


u know im starting to think the effort-grade relationship is an exponential function ..

This is a new level of laziness i nv knew was in me.
the laptop is right there, two metres away, but im blogging and youtubing from my bed cuz it's more comfortable here :S
what i do not know how to do is post youtube vids on FB or blogger.

i own the worst pair of earphones in the world. it is worse than the cellphone speaker. the sound quality is so bad, im appalled. good thing i still have skullcandy.

i suddenly feel very old because i was listening to the radio just now, and 5ive's Closer to Me was playing.it was so nostalgic. all of a sudden i was brought back to cheesy times of 10 years ago! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! i feel so old.

Trying out phone blogging. Getting used to this tiny qwerty keyboard.. Not making as many typos now :D

Overdosed on salmon at lunch :#
urgh. Dum dee. What a lazy sunday. There's nowhere to go and nothing to do! still quite pleased with yesterday's purchase :)

yay new phone. a bit slow but i am a slow person. qwerty is so much more fun.
yay new liquid foundation. SANA maikohan liquid foundation! it feels nicer than truematch. wonder how its staying power is?
looking for pressed powder now! thinking of kanebo TIFFA :D

i think i will be content with a life that is without highs and lows.

hakanai setsunai niteru sono te meta-shi uchuu okureba
ukiyo hanare* anata kanata na no de tohou ni kureta
urei deirei kanjou inryoku ochitekuru etosetora
mafuyu yozora shinkuu meita nioi omowazu kushami
tsuki ga uso minuki boku wo terashitara
kazoe kireru you na kanashimi no hazu de
hoshi ga yureru no wa aruiteru kara de
nanimokamo subete odayaka na hazu de
a- are da mitsuketa te no todokanai ryouiki no hikari
tomoru tabako kemuri pukari jumon abura kadabura
mahou-tsukai sareba ginga ikutsumono kimi deshita
tsuki ga uso minuki boku wo terashitara
kazoe kireru you na kanashimi no hazu de
hoshi ga yureru no wa aruiteru kara de
nanimokamo subete odayaka na hazu de
a- are da mitsuketa te no todokanai ryouiki no hikari
risou tenshi meisou fujichaku shuubasu jitensha seesaw buranko
futari nori de yurashita kokoro wa ne,
katappo nukechattara dame da na
modoro kana kaero kana demo hyaku pa maigo nande
sore muri deshou?
tsuki ga uso minuki boku wo terashitara
kazoe kireru you na kanashimi no hazu de
hoshi ga yureru no wa aruiteru kara de
nanimokamo subete odayaka na hazu de
tsuki ga tsumi keshite boku wo yurushitara
kazoenakute ii kanashimi no hazu de
hoshi ga kowaresou umarekawarisou
ashita mezamete mo wasurenai hazu de
a- are da mitsuketa te no todokanai ryouiki da
a- sekai yusaburi
tashikamete mita kimi koso hikari

today ive a short fuse.
so many things irked me.
like the poor service at sakae. no one seemed to see us. no one wanted to seat us. after that the sushi took forever to arrive. they didnt have diet coke. and then the cashier was missing when we wanted to settle the bill. a lot of waiting. and no apology! im not a difficult person - an apology will suffice. "sorry for the wait" i guess that was too much to ask! argh! none of the staff present seemed to want to open their mouths and speak properly!

and then mum made a rather ridiculous remark, which im gonna file under 'crazytalk'. even though i say it is crazytalk it still bothers me. besides crazytalk, there's crazycrazy. crazycrazy is scolding me for laughing too much. or saying im too critical. thats crazycrazy because neither dad nor i find the things that we said count as 'critical' or 'mocking'. she's just too sensitive. even my most innocent harmless comment of 'wow, did the neighbor just add another potted fern?' (we have a neighbor who has some potted plants just adjacent to the lobby. they are actually quite pretty) and mum was like 'shhh!' and i was WHAT?!?!?!??!???

WHATTTT!!!, right! she just assumes everything we say was said with bad intention! IT IS SO FREAKING ANNOYING!!!sometimes i tell myself to keep quiet and not chide my mum FOR BEING SO DOWNRIGHT RIDICULOUS because EVEN I FIND MYSELF NAGGY FOR SCOLDING HER SO MUCH!!!!
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD DOCTOR CAN YOU INCREASE HER MEDICATIONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I THINK SHE NEEDS A STRONGER DOSE OF MEDICINE FOR PARANOIA

and then there are a few other things from other people that just pissed me off.

so all that means a very grouchy me. very grouchy.

going jb tmr
damn i wish the exchange rate was more favorable.

got my hands on dona dona release by Plastic Tree. hehehehee
i like 1999, sunset bloody sunset, ... and a few more la.
yasashisa club is ridiculous!

on a side note, the model jack neo had an affair with is kinda ugly. even his wife is prettier. sheesh. i wonder what she has to say about all this

gah. ate a lot. ate fish and chips then durian. hai
went to look at new phones. couldnt decide. hai. i hate phone shopping. and i'll have to relearn everything. annoying. but everyone agrees i need a new phone.
IT show tmr lei. crowds are the biggest turn off.

wow. midnight already. we had a wonderful dinner of curry fish head at bedok. yummy.
i should limit myself to one meal a day man. during the exam period i didnt really eat well, so ive gotten used to being hungry. and when i do eat i feel full fast. i must make use of this wonderful opportunity to lose weight!

again, the weather sucks. the air sucks. it sucks the life out of you. morning i wake up, step out of my room and the first deep breath of air smells of smoke. sheesh.
i hope mum will make gyoza soon! sudden gyoza craving. hahahahaha

my solution to boredom is to sleep more. i wake at 11am. go back to sleep at 3. wake at 6pm. then sleep at 12midnight.
hahahahahahahaha

i need to do something to my room. rearrange furniture or something. im bored.
at the same time i need to do some major cleaning up.
and i need to find the 'off' switch for my brain

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something someone said a long time ago still pisses me off today. it is that same thing i resent him for. grrr. im upset because what he said was out of line. sometimes guys need to think before they speak. they also need to be less cocky just because theyve gotten a confidence boost. to own branded stuff doesnt mean much.
and i know it has been one year already but i just cant forgive or forget this indignation.

i have one eyelash that isnt straight. it just curls up on its own. i would be glad if the whole row of lashes curled up on their own. but because the rest of my lashes are straight, this one oddity really bothers me. i always want to pluck it out.
my overacting meibomian glands really annoy me too. so i like to use a cotton bud and sweep the lid margin. except i do more than that. i probably poke my eyes more than i should.


im waiting for acuvue's trueye BC9.0 to be launched. at least i hope it will be available here. i think im going to switch to daily disposables. i was considering biofinity (coopervisoin) for a while but i just realised ive survived this many weeks without lenses, i can afford not to wear them everyday. i just risk having everyone think im really arrogant that i ignore them on the street when the truth is im avoiding eye contact with everyone because i cant recognise friend from stranger.

my eyes havent been whiter in a long time :D ! not to mention, i cant find a single lens that is constantly comfortable or clear. i don't know why the vision fluctuates so much. oh wait i do. it is only clear when it's stuck on my cornea, which is not how i want to wear my lenses. :<


i am kind of annoyed with someone. im sure it's not me. im sure it isnt because i have a lower than normal need for social interaction. ok, perhaps partly, thats why im short-tempered. im sure its also because that person is just extra annoying. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH that, or that someone has a really poor memory, cuz that someone keeps asking me the same thing every few days. what the helllllllllllllllllllll ?!?
incessant. thats the word! it's like that fly that keeps flying in front of my face!(u know the kind that flies kind of slow, but manages to escape everytime u swat it?)the only people who can ask me the same things repeatedly are people with permanent head damage! so go get a concussion, or else learn to be more patient!!!!