Thirteen Rabbits

Blogging from bed because of a stupid migraine. moving makes my head pound and sitting makes me nauseous. What a wasted day.

bleh. i am so confused. im reading a paper thats related to a potential FYP topic, but i might as well be reading a chinese report, because i can't understand it!
all ive got, after 7 pages, is a fuzzy idea of what the whole experiment is about, which is very much the level of understanding i get from reading anything printed in chinese.

i don't know how i can recognise chinese words without knowing what the hell they mean. i don't know how i can answer comprehension questions when i skip every other word. i consider it a miracle i got a B for chinese.

i am quite sad that i can't read a chinese food label too. i suppose death by poisioning is a possibility for me.

finally caught up on anime!
arakawa under the bridge is super cool. the characters are so ridiculous i love them! it reminds me of the zetsubou sensei series
it would be so fun to dress up as the kappa/chief!
see kappa in the background? the second half of episode 1 where he debuts is epic!!

episode 3 ( i think) has angry star-headed man. he's got the funniest facial expressions!

can't wait for new episodes!

im rather pleased because my favourite doctor-with-the-most-wonderful-way-of-speaking let us use 78D today. hahaha he has the most calming voice ever. i think it's because he sorta mumbles a lot.. and there's this laid-back feeling about him :S i suppose the fact that he kinda looks like a panda helps. just a teeny bit of resemblance. and i don't mean it in a disrespectful way or anything.. how can u bully a panda, man? (it's the same as taking candy from a child!)


other than that i don't have much to say, except I'm actually kinda enjoying this geekiness.
however i don't quite appreciate feeling like there's so much to learn and so little time! it is impossible to squeeze everything into my head in one year. i really wish there was a USB port or bluetooth or sth in my head so i could upload all this into my head and retain it.


did u know 'retain' has the same letters as 'retina'? i just noticed cuz i made a typo. hahahaha

caught a cold.

cant believe sunday's the last day of the holidays!
i can't believe i put so many things off for so long! like fixing my ophthalmoscope, buying clinic wear and CLEANING MY ROOM!!!!!!!
gosh good thing i don't have 4 straight days of clinic till May!


and i need to get maybe 2 pairs of jeans! all of them have faded (yuckss. not to mention they are kinda short too) and my fav black ones (cuz it was the darkest black) got bleached :( stupid detergent.
forever21 needs to make jeans with longer inseams!!!!!!! i really think whoever's manufacturing the clothes are stingy with fabric. looking at their blazers/jackets, so many of them are cropped or just plain short (by short i mean <24inches long)!! SHIT!! unless uve got a model's figure, cropped jackets make you look 5 kgs fatter.

studied the clinic schedule. studied the new semester's timetable.

me is scared. clinic is scary. on last count, 28 sessions! :S
there are some diseases that just refuse to stay in my head!
some weeks theres only one clinical session. some weeks there's 4! :( :(
im feeling stressed out. need to get my ophthalmoscope fixed. need to get used to using 90D! and whatever happened to my ret skills???? damn scissor reflex!!

even non-clinic days are scary. the timetable just looks scary.

it seems like so many things squeezed into one semester! damn YOG!
so many. so confusing. so dead.


on a totally different topic, i noticed the recommended videos on the annoying MSN ad space are quite lame. oh wait.. the videos have always been pretty lame. local tv programmes, interviews with local celebrities ... most of them involve silly stuff like on-screen kisses, and their private lives.

what? does anyone care?

local tv has also tried to increase popularity of shows with sex appeal. sigh. i only have 2 words : new lows.

is that the best they can do?
we need more programmes that get us thinking. we need tv with more content!



(we also need a way to make teenagers grow up because stupid people piss me off.

yes i am more cross than usual of late. i believe i will develop immunity to stupid people in a few more days)


bleah. i hate my crappy mood.

damn, it is so difficult not to burn bridges. it is troublesome to build bridges.


being outspoken is to risk offending someone. keeping quiet is to risk having people trample all over you. the worst thing is, it isnt easy to know if someone is offended! and so much of it has got to do with culture. like how i find every other thing an excited chinese (especially aunties) says offensive (it's more to do with how they talk and not so much what they say). hmmmmmmm is it just me? does anyone else feel slightly offended when they speak loudly and act like know-it-alls? isnt it universal? it's the aggressiveness i can't stand! why cant people speak gentler? or phrase things nicely? or pick the right words? so i am a little sensitive

argh. i just don't get aunties! hmmmm maybe it is the language! maybe the way they speak mandarin , or the way mandarin is meant to be spoken in... it just comes off as aggressive? like how some middle eastern-ers always sound like theyre really upset but thats just the way they talk? hmmmmmmmmm

gosh. especially with mandarin! my mandarin is bad enough. couple that with a lack of understanding of this 'culture' = misunderstandings?
i dont know how to react because i cant tell if it is friendly or hostile! so i smile or give an empty 'haha'. and then people think im weird behaving like that!! why are you smiling/laughing? is this funny? this isnt funny! why are u laughing?!
sheeeeesh. it really annoys me when ppl think im crazy! get off your high horse and take a look at yourself! realise someone else probably thinks u're straight off your rocker too! why does everyone take themselves as the definition of normal and judge everyone else with those standards? i want to slap dumbshits like them!


(i know... in that way i am quite the dictator. i have high standards and i am cruel to those that fall short! at times i think stupid people should just be shipped off to some isolated island where they can be stupid to each other. at times i think all teenagers should be given prozac - it will make life bearable, and it will make everyone around them feel much better too, because emo-ness is contagious. and i speak from experience k?

yup. i can never be a politician. it probably wouldnt be a democracy under me HAHAHAHAHA.
i'll try to be more forgiving.)


daaaaaaaaaaaaamn. the more i think of it, the more i feel it all boils down to one thing: human beings are really difficult to communicate with!


the other thing i just HATE with people who think they know a lot - their minds are made up! they refuse to listen to what you have to say. sometimes they are totally wrong, but years of experience have engraved in their heads that they are right! oh my god people! open your eyes! eat some humble pie! will it kill you to consider? instead of dismissing new information as rubbish that cant beat your years of experience! why have people become so narrow? how can there be improvement if u are so stubborn?? learning cannot end!!!!!!!!!!!


it never really occurred to me that so many traits piss me off! ohkay... ive mostly only interacted with the same group of people all this time. meeting so many new people has been an eye opener.
some impress me. some depress me.

lately i just call them stupid people.

it isnt your qualifications, years of experience, or rank. u are stupid.
normally un-stupid people can become stupid too. usually happens when they are angry.

it's so difficult to be human, isnt it?

ooh. went to shoot hoops with my dad last night. the basket is much lower and larger than i remembered. and i can shoot from further distance than i expected. overall quite fun. i would like to go more often but dad's probably too tired. and it just looks sad to play alone.

cant believe school's starting next week! 6 weeks flew by! :(
im just the type of person made to laze around.

bought focaccia bread mix. it is definitely much cheaper to buy the ingredients on their own but thats SO much trouble. and store-bought ones are so stale! cant wait to try this one!

im lacking vitamin C. i have caught a cold. my skin is itchy. it could either be allergens or dryness. i don't feel like crap yet. i am annoyed that i cant sign in to gmarket though.

some people are so bitchy! ok, since i am referring to a 50, 60 yr old woman, perhaps bitchy isnt the right word (i use 'bitchy' with ppl in their 20s and younger. douchebag for those in their 30s-mid40s, but i don't have an equivalent word for the elderly)
i really don't know why some people are annoyed!
we do all the work. everything is over in 5minutes! ur colleague is the one we're talking to, not YOU. YOU don't even have to listen! 5 minutes of YOUR COLLEAGUE'S time. and it isnt like anyone is busy!


5minutes!


sheesh. in the time u gave us a lecture for wasting YOUR COLLEAGUE'S time, we cldve finished everything we needed to do and left!

god, some people are so narrow minded. it's so frustrating when i have to put up with dumbshits like that! i want to argue with them (even tho i know it gets nowhere) just for fun, cuz it amuses me so. but i can't because i have to think of the company im representing. i can only nod and smile and pretend to be interested or sheepish,
but really, i don't give a shit abt what youre saying. sheesh.

i hate it when people get mad at employees who are just doing their job, especially when it isnt the employee's fault! if someone pissed you off, don't take it out on me! wtf?!

me is not feeling so good. thinks me has caught a cold. the weather's been wonky lately. hot cold hot cold. gah. i wish it was just cold cold cold cold cold.

i had a zombie dream just now. i say dream and not nightmare because it wasnt really scary. hahahahahahaha

day before yesterday i think i dreamt of something really funny. i think i laughed out loud twice. i laughed myself awake.

cant sleep. cant sleeeep
need to wake up super early later but i cant sleeeep
there's no use forcing myself to sleep cuz it won't work. but if i don't try then i won't even fall asleep. :S

i will probably get a headache trying to stay awake in the day.

gosh. the more i interact with people the more i realise how socially awkward i am. i think im just neurotic. i probably got that from mum.

im afraid all this running around under the sun's gonna leave me tanned :( i did use sunscreen but i think im darker already :(((((