Thirteen Rabbits

we went to JB yesterday. there stuff to like and stuff to dislike there. i like the cheap mangosteens and rambutans and tomatoes and snacks. i like being able to see the wide open sky. most of all I love going to watson's in msia. CHEAP U KNOW CHEAPPP CHEAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPP not to mention they have KANEBO KATE!! KATE KATE KATE!!!!!!!

singapore only has MM. pfft.

so i spent RM90 on Kate's new liquid foundation (the tall skinny one) and eyebrow pencil.
seeing the big 9-0 scared me a little, but if u did the math, thats under SGD39.
damn foundation is expensive. RM66! and doesnt look like a lot of product. but oh well.
if i had to complain, i'd have to complain about the LACK OF STOCK. eh wth? there was only 1 shade (OC-D) and maybe 4 bottles of it too! i took a chance with OChre-D.
my favorite kate pressed powder was OOS too :( why why why why why? this tiny compact didnt last me 6months! too little product! grr!
oh but i love that kate eyebrow pencils come in so many shades. the skinfood brown im using is kinda dark. and recently it's gotten kinda soft and crayon-y so im getting pretty thick lines, which is super annoying.
i bought kate's in br3 or sth. yippee. and i can pretty much colour it on without worry. only gripe is it doesnt come with one of those brushes at the other end. tch. have to keep the skinfood one then

next purchase will be kate's liquid rouge! now i cant wait to finish the etude house lipgloss weining bought for me! :D

come to think of it ive spent a lot of money ah. i have 2 tubes of lavshuca liquid fdtn, both too light. lavshuca is really creamy. not too bad actually.
the worst is still that whatsitcalled ... SANA maiko han foundation. it smells strange. not bad, just strange. something i can get over. it is pretty watery in consistency. it couldnt stand up to the humidity and just melted off. horrible staying power. a real let down.

damn my bank balance keeps falling.

i don't know what happened to my windows live messenger. it is gone. deleted. it decided to disappear sometime this afternoon. i missed it really soon because even though less than 5 contacts chat with me on a 'regular' basis, messenger has become like a boyfriend to me -- the one uve had for years and no longer love but cant bear to dump
..
not that i'd know how it really feels.

oh well. messenger was probably stolen by a young new thing Windows Update introduced. otherwise it was kidnapped by some rogue program that found its way in because Norton abandoned us years ago.

nausea. nausea.
not having regular meals is bad.

a chicken patty sandwich at 6am. cuppucino at 11. cookie at 1230. tea at 3pm.
when i woke from my nap at 5pm i was nauseated and feeling so bleh i didnt even want to eat. but i had salmon porridge anyway
and i still feel like puking.

these days i feel like my tongue is gagging me.

i love weekends. but i cant help feeling like im wasting time if i don't do things like assignments or reading and stuff.
school has sucked the fun out of slacking.

well i just finished another episode of The Pacific. was it episode 9?
i love war shows, don't you?

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it's like MAGIC! it IS magic! it's magic how i can be bored as hell for 5 hours.
google 'arimura ryutaro' and start smiling after 5 seconds.
magic, i tell u.

well i can feel my back ache. it's back. argh. i was miraculously free of pain for one week but it crept back! evil. there iz evil goblinz doing fings to meh back!

i am just wasting time now
just set a new record on fb's word spasm. i am such a geek. 75000! ive been aiming for that for ever! had Muse's Undisclosed Desires on loop. it mustve played 4 times before i game over'd! aye i must thank Muse. so i could come out with words like freak with 5 seconds on the timer.

i was searching for stars in the afternoon. it occurred to me that clouds actually look as if the sky is splitting. well-demarcated clouds make it look like that anyway. it reminded me of Bleach - u know, when the sky splits and monsters come out..

anyway i had the worst roti prata ive ever had in my life this morning. it was salty!

epic fail!

the curry was salty! EPIC FAIL! even frozen ones from the supermarket were better! and that's saying a lot! gosh i didnt know anyone could go wrong with roti prata!

eeeeeeeeya i changed blogskin finally! i dunno why i find cats so funny. so are cats>dogs? well, both animals are so idiotic at times i cant help but like both. dogs make better pets tho.

gosh i think im a glutton for punishment

couldve taken the easy way out but i chose the difficult road. i must be an idiot.

im an idiot with aspirations. these daydreams are hard to materialise.
the harder the struggle, the sweeter the success. or something like that.

even when i reach the finish line, there's still the walk home.
i hope i have enough energy to make it to finish. the walk home can wait.

around 3pm
i was looking at the cumulus clouds hanging in the bright sky thinking

'ay clouds. i think they look prettier at night

yup, clouds are still in the sky at night. just as stars are still there in the day.
i think clouds are more beautiful when illuminated by a flash of lightning. the fleeting view makes them more precious and so much more beautiful.

having said all that in my head my inner voice went on,

tch. how can i like nighttime clouds more than daytime clouds? if the same cloud were there i should like it just as much! regardless of the time of day! if i like nighttime clouds more than daytime clouds it means im taking daytime clouds for granted!

(because, as i mentioned, clouds are clouds, be it day or night)

and then i felt the tiniest bit of pity and disappointment for taking daytime clouds for granted.
i have been superficial -- a very human shortcoming.

(!?!?!?!!)

it took me a whole night to read this 12 page article!! granted, i was very distracted by facebook and anime. however, this is the second time im reading it so i should be able to grasp it faster, right?
4 more articles to read! the 2 toughest ones ive yet to print! so difficult, i need to underline stuff and re-read things 3 times before they make sense!

it's gonna be a long day tmr! ive got it all planned out
hop on the train early, like 715am, to get a seat. read as much as i can in 40 minutes and pray i don't fall asleep. reach the library early to print more stuff to read before tutorial starts at 9! look for fyp lecturer at the end of school, then stay back some more to get some homework done
im hoping since i got so much sleep this weekend, i'll be able to last the day!

im amazed my classmates can afford to work part time! envious too, cuz it would be nice to buy more clothes without feeling bad. oh well.

im very upset. very very very upset. lost my ezlink card @#$%^$%&%&$@^@!!!!!!
there goes concession. still had 2 weeks to go. &#&#(*&^%&($$$^*()!!

bloody hell. public transport is so expensive. ok. relatively cheap compared to other countries, BUT STILL EXPENSIVE!!! especially to a jobless full time student!!!!! #$%%&^&*^^$!! i dunno why fares are so expensive even when there are so many passengers!!

it is especially upsetting because for the past week ive had a nagging feeling that i might lose my card, so it's been weighing on my mind! i made it a point to check that i havent dropped it! AND NOW IT IS GONE KNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW THE HELL DID I MANAGE TO LOSE IT IF IVE BEEN CAREFUL????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and then my stupid singtel bill. should have stuck with starhub!

it's wednesday night. after a 9-5 day at the hospital im still alive! only saw 4 patients today though. but im really enjoying the clinical sessions! :B (<-- thats supposed to be a nerdy grin.)
i prefer this to wccc sessions because uhhhhhhh well we are more spoonfed la. there's no diagnosis to make since theyre all follow-up appointments!

television is evil. i parked myself in front of the tv the whole day today. one show after another.
at least i learnt something
the trick to getting out of the TV's trap is to switch it off when the credits roll. don't press the right arrow on the remote and see what's next!!!!!!!


i feel so fat now.


this month's national geographic magazine has an article titled The Science of Sleep. i thought it was quite funny.

Some insomniacs suffer from restless legs syndrome...or periodic limb movement disorder...Narcoleptics often have difficulty both staying asleep and staying awake. Then there are people who can't sleep because of depression, and people who are depressed because they can't sleep.

im worried about the coming week.

monday: 10 - 4
tuesday: 9 - 6
wednesday: 9-5
thursday: 8 - 5
friday: 9-12

it doesnt look like a lot, but considering i need to get up 3 hours earlier for school and im already pretty wiped out after a 5-hr day (technically closer to 9 hrs by the time i get home) especially clinic days, which drain me faster than canals drain monsoon rains, i find myself wishing i could give myself adrenaline jabs.

this is just a post of random thoughts im thinking of now because im upset.

if u want something done, do it yourself.

live like Ichinomiya Kou - without owing anyone anything.

upsettt upsetttttttttt im quite upsettttttt !!!!! :@

people are so unreliable!!!!!


pffft. anyway
so many blogshops/girls selling clothes online. i wonder why ppl type things like 'pls help me clear my wardrobe!!' or 'pls fund me!!!' or 'bank balance depleting!!'

helloooo...? i don't even know u! why on earth would i be inclined to help? why do u think i will feel the slightest bit of pity for u for overspending/buying things you don't need? why do i care if ur closet is bursting or if uve got no money to buy more clothes? sheesh. u brought it on yourself! blame it on your lack of money management skills! spoilt, impulsive princesses.


crazy. people are just crazy. 30 yr old delinquents still leeching off their mums. these people should just kill themselves. i honestly believe that -i don't care if ppl say im heartless (mum says i am. she says im a heartless student too engrossed in books and the scientific method to care about people)-

anyway


useless people should either turn over a new leaf or just roll over and die.

by 'useless' i mean people who dont try. they dont try to get a job. they dont try to work hard. perfectly healthy (physically and mentally) individuals who are content to leech off others just because it is easy. people who keep complaining but don't take action to make things happen. these people need to be slapped. these people fail at being humans.


people with no ambition are another sad lot. i won't say they should die because they are just pitiful. life is meaningless without ambition. i hope ambition-less people find something to work/look towards, because they'd probably slip into depression soon if nothing changes. and there are so many things one can do if one tries..(at least, thats what i want to think)

my english has de-proved!! i find myself wanting to say something, but im no longer sure if im using the right expression!! this is a very conscious awareness - it's been bugging me for a few months now.
nooooooooooooooo!!
when i read english books, i would hear an English man's voice. a narrator. English accent.
that man is gone now.
replaced by a slightly more american sounding woman!! but not the right accent either!
noooooooooooo!!!!!!!
i think it is because i only listen to japanese anime and watch american tv shows on cable.
T_T

damn. mosquito again. got me 5 times in 5 minutes. my poor legs.
exactly what good does this insect do anyway? even annoying ants are vital for the ecosystem.
i cant think of anything beneficial these god forsaken freaks do, except feed other water-dwelling babies when they are still wriggling larvae.
they shld just remain larvae forever. why grow wings!?!

daaaaaaaaamn i couldnt get a good night's rest last night because of the backache.

mondays/ tuesdays arent that bad because new subs are uploaded around this time!! :D:D:D

hakuouki, arakawa, bleach, naruto, fullmetal and a bunch more awesome anime!